been lost but now i am back.
i have skipped a lot of occasions that were actually worth blogging so i will just enumerate them here.
MY GRADUATION. yes, thank God i am not a College student anymore!!! i am a GRADUATE! :D
what else?
hm, oh well maybe that event is worth a lot... and means a lot, especially for my parents.
i have always decided to be more active here but i always forget to do so. i also promised to put more pictures but i also always fail to do so. what's happening?
well, maybe, a little change is good. maybe i should really try to blog more often. nah, i am rumbling to myself.
kidding aside, i was actually surprised with the different comments on my chatbox. i did not think that some people are reading this.. oh and i forgot, i received a comment about my usage of punctuation marks and capitalization.. and yeah, maybe i should improve on this one.
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Starting now, I will be a renewed blogger :D
Ok, I promise, I will really try my best :D
today, i commit myself to healthier living!
YES.
i promise these words to myself.
i believe that my college life has deprived me so much of a healthy life.
my brain cells are already shouting ABUSE!!!!!!
sometimes i don't know if i still excel at grammar. maybe i need a refresher course or maybe i just need to read a lot of books again!!! NAH.
i will start with this healthy lifestyle. i promise. NO STAYING BEYOND 1:30 AM. No, make that 1AM. STOP ABUSING YOURSELF, Lence.
Lord, thank you for all of your blessings. I am sorry if at times, i am not able to take care of them.
To You, i surrender everything. AMEN.
i promise these words to myself.
i believe that my college life has deprived me so much of a healthy life.
my brain cells are already shouting ABUSE!!!!!!
sometimes i don't know if i still excel at grammar. maybe i need a refresher course or maybe i just need to read a lot of books again!!! NAH.
i will start with this healthy lifestyle. i promise. NO STAYING BEYOND 1:30 AM. No, make that 1AM. STOP ABUSING YOURSELF, Lence.
Lord, thank you for all of your blessings. I am sorry if at times, i am not able to take care of them.
To You, i surrender everything. AMEN.
i can't think of a title so i'll just place a :)
yeeeeey! i was able to fix my blog AGAIN! look at the new picture -->
that's me :D
i have noticed that my previous posts were kinda sad or desperate or whatever. i believe that this blog is personal and yes i tolerate my sudden bursts of emotions. maybe just a few years from now, after i experience the real world out there, i will laugh at myself for having been so stressed for trivial matters. but what can i say? i live now. haha. and i realy feel good in venting out some of my emotions here. maybe it's because not a lot of people know this web-space or maybe i have just grown a very deep relationship with this blog.
thinking of it. this has been with me since like the end of 2007. and now, with God's grace, i am to finish College. thank You Lord! even though i was not able to update this regularly, i know that somehow, it contains relevant information about what i have experienced for the past years... and for that, i am really thankful.
now, i am planning to update this more and put some pictures too! yes, words are nice but visual representations are a plus! and it is easier to remember with the pictures :D
i will really try to update this more often :D
**i suddenly feel sleepy and i ought to sleep early. i have been abusing myself in terms of sleep habits. ciao for now.
that's me :D
i have noticed that my previous posts were kinda sad or desperate or whatever. i believe that this blog is personal and yes i tolerate my sudden bursts of emotions. maybe just a few years from now, after i experience the real world out there, i will laugh at myself for having been so stressed for trivial matters. but what can i say? i live now. haha. and i realy feel good in venting out some of my emotions here. maybe it's because not a lot of people know this web-space or maybe i have just grown a very deep relationship with this blog.
thinking of it. this has been with me since like the end of 2007. and now, with God's grace, i am to finish College. thank You Lord! even though i was not able to update this regularly, i know that somehow, it contains relevant information about what i have experienced for the past years... and for that, i am really thankful.
now, i am planning to update this more and put some pictures too! yes, words are nice but visual representations are a plus! and it is easier to remember with the pictures :D
i will really try to update this more often :D
**i suddenly feel sleepy and i ought to sleep early. i have been abusing myself in terms of sleep habits. ciao for now.
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when signs point to different directions, where should i go?
this is not a form of ranting... nor do i complain about my situation.
i am just plain confused.
what should i do?
what should i do?
please enlighten me Lord. please.
should i really give up???
give up this dream???
Lord, what is Your plan?
i need to pray. and to meditate. or maybe i just need to sleep.
this is not a form of ranting... nor do i complain about my situation.
i am just plain confused.
what should i do?
what should i do?
please enlighten me Lord. please.
should i really give up???
give up this dream???
Lord, what is Your plan?
i need to pray. and to meditate. or maybe i just need to sleep.
:| please work now. NOW. and tomorrow!! and forever!!!
i know Lord, i am not the best person on earth. but there's nothing i want more right now than to make this work and finish this thing. please Lord. please. i offer You all of these challenges. please help me. AMEN.
sometimes, plans really screw up
i guess everyone knows the feeling of having planned things and then suddenly, something comes up and everything crashes down.
it's saddening. disappointing. it's like a dream,or a nightmare, that you'd want to escape and wake up from.
you have that feeling of wanting to go back to the time when everything was still set.... you just wanna hold on. but you can't. maybe i just can't. maybe it's not just meant to be. or whut.
these are the times when confusion strikes. cliche. these are the times when you literally don't know what to do and you can't do anything but hope for the best.
i ask God why. and i know that His answers...and plans... are far more perfect than the ones i have set for myself. sometimes i ask, why let me taste the cheese? when He knows that frail as i am, i have indulged and thrown myself into it completely... and then pull the cheese away? but of course, God is good because He chose me to have the cheese even for a while.
cheese is not really a good term. i am not a mouse to be exact or the term "cheese" underlies what could have been.
i am really baffled right now by the situation. but maybe this is not so bad after all. maybe i am really meant to stay here. or not. i don't know. maybe it is still too early to think about these things. maybe there are still other ways. God, what do You plan for me? i know that is great and i am excited for that. please let me understand. please.
yes i am baffled. but i am not worried. i am sad but i am not in despair..
things have changed. and my course of direction can also change. but i know that God is with me and He will direct me.
i am fortunate to had taste of good life and to have that momentary period when i thought i can change everything in an instant. but maybe God is waking me up, waking everyone up... that after all, He is still the one in control. He is still the one who knows what's best. God is good and never will He forsake anyone.
yes my plans are not happening as what i have thought of them to be. but maybe a little chaos can beautify things. God please enlighten me.. AMEN.
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just a few weeks ago, i have signed a contract for overseas employment in a very good company which can offer me the job of my dreams. but then, that country is now facing its biggest challenge in all aspects. now, should i continue? do i even have the option in the first place? what do i want? what is essential? God, i know You have plans. i trust You. that is why i will let You decide.
it's saddening. disappointing. it's like a dream,or a nightmare, that you'd want to escape and wake up from.
you have that feeling of wanting to go back to the time when everything was still set.... you just wanna hold on. but you can't. maybe i just can't. maybe it's not just meant to be. or whut.
these are the times when confusion strikes. cliche. these are the times when you literally don't know what to do and you can't do anything but hope for the best.
i ask God why. and i know that His answers...and plans... are far more perfect than the ones i have set for myself. sometimes i ask, why let me taste the cheese? when He knows that frail as i am, i have indulged and thrown myself into it completely... and then pull the cheese away? but of course, God is good because He chose me to have the cheese even for a while.
cheese is not really a good term. i am not a mouse to be exact or the term "cheese" underlies what could have been.
i am really baffled right now by the situation. but maybe this is not so bad after all. maybe i am really meant to stay here. or not. i don't know. maybe it is still too early to think about these things. maybe there are still other ways. God, what do You plan for me? i know that is great and i am excited for that. please let me understand. please.
yes i am baffled. but i am not worried. i am sad but i am not in despair..
things have changed. and my course of direction can also change. but i know that God is with me and He will direct me.
i am fortunate to had taste of good life and to have that momentary period when i thought i can change everything in an instant. but maybe God is waking me up, waking everyone up... that after all, He is still the one in control. He is still the one who knows what's best. God is good and never will He forsake anyone.
yes my plans are not happening as what i have thought of them to be. but maybe a little chaos can beautify things. God please enlighten me.. AMEN.
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just a few weeks ago, i have signed a contract for overseas employment in a very good company which can offer me the job of my dreams. but then, that country is now facing its biggest challenge in all aspects. now, should i continue? do i even have the option in the first place? what do i want? what is essential? God, i know You have plans. i trust You. that is why i will let You decide.
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