Yes I know I have been out of this space for the longest time since I decided to become active here again. Nah, I was about to say "I have a very good excuse" but then I suddenly remembered the main reason why I opened this page again.
It is to state this crucial statement in my life right now.
"STOP MAKING EXCUSES AND DO YOUR BEST INSTEAD."
Conditions/factors may not always be ideal but it doesn't mean that IDEAL results are not possible.
Strive harder. Cliche.
Work harder. Cliche.
Be the best you can be and make the most out of what you have. Not so cliche.
IF YOU REALLY WANT SOMETHING, THE UNIVERSE WILL CONSPIRE WITH YOU TO ACHIEVE IT AND MAKE IT HAPPEN. (The Alchemist)
Maybe I am writing this to inspire myself. To give myself a push. To make me realize that Yes, I may be tired most of the time, but no one truly succeeded without ever perspiring. Yes, it may be difficult but I know it would be worth it in the end.
Today is the only time for me to do these things. Let me do my best so that when I look back, I wouldn't have regrets in the end.
GOD BLESSes me.
and it His for His greater glory that I am doing what I am doing.
pissed off but trying not to
The title speaks for what I feel as of this moment. I am really troubled by what's happening. I don't know. I just want to do a lot of things and grow in a lot of ways. It's just that recently, I feel so stagnant.
I have always wanted a lot for myself. I have always dreamed BIG... and it sulks to feel that I don't feel like I am expanding in any sort other than my weight.
I WANT TO BREAK FREE.
Free from all expectations, free from every thing that inhibits me from becoming the person that I want to be or the person that I envision myself to be. Well, I don't exactly know what God wants me to be as of the moment but I know that He wants me to be a good person... and by being 'this' kind of a person right now in this very moment does not really speak well of how I am doing in terms of being what God wants me to be. But I know, right now, I need to feel this... because complacency is never good. Settling for something when you could have achieved more will not always be a best resort.
I don't exactly know why I am feeling 'this' way again. I am sad inside and it just seems that I have been setting a lot of goals but I am not materializing concrete steps. The most frustrating thing is that I am not only talking about the long term goals, but more of a day to day basis. Maybe I am indeed panicking inside. Maybe I am indeed in a chaotic situation wherein I am still standing on unsafe grounds. I don't know. I am just plain confused.
While they say that Happiness is a choice, sometimes I just can't avoid being true to myself. And while I suffer the consequences of being sad and terrible, at least I am becoming honest and I am informed that something IS wrong. Yes, it is hard to feel happy when you are really feeling sad, but maybe sometimes, feeling what you truly feel is even harder and to some lengths, more admirable, because in a sense, you face the truth and try to make light of whatever darkness is present.
I always know that GOD has a plan. And it will never hurt to trust HIM. Feeling all these anxieties may sometimes be too much but I know that in the long run, being honest would be healthier. In the end, the nest option still to surrender everything to the Almighty.
"Lord God, right now, I am really feeling sad. I know that You are arranging the best things for me. And I am sorry for feeling this way. I lift up all my fears to You. To You be the glory. Thank you for everything. And thank You for loving me."
The Lord is good and kind. He provides. And He will forever be with me.
I have always wanted a lot for myself. I have always dreamed BIG... and it sulks to feel that I don't feel like I am expanding in any sort other than my weight.
I WANT TO BREAK FREE.
Free from all expectations, free from every thing that inhibits me from becoming the person that I want to be or the person that I envision myself to be. Well, I don't exactly know what God wants me to be as of the moment but I know that He wants me to be a good person... and by being 'this' kind of a person right now in this very moment does not really speak well of how I am doing in terms of being what God wants me to be. But I know, right now, I need to feel this... because complacency is never good. Settling for something when you could have achieved more will not always be a best resort.
I don't exactly know why I am feeling 'this' way again. I am sad inside and it just seems that I have been setting a lot of goals but I am not materializing concrete steps. The most frustrating thing is that I am not only talking about the long term goals, but more of a day to day basis. Maybe I am indeed panicking inside. Maybe I am indeed in a chaotic situation wherein I am still standing on unsafe grounds. I don't know. I am just plain confused.
While they say that Happiness is a choice, sometimes I just can't avoid being true to myself. And while I suffer the consequences of being sad and terrible, at least I am becoming honest and I am informed that something IS wrong. Yes, it is hard to feel happy when you are really feeling sad, but maybe sometimes, feeling what you truly feel is even harder and to some lengths, more admirable, because in a sense, you face the truth and try to make light of whatever darkness is present.
I always know that GOD has a plan. And it will never hurt to trust HIM. Feeling all these anxieties may sometimes be too much but I know that in the long run, being honest would be healthier. In the end, the nest option still to surrender everything to the Almighty.
"Lord God, right now, I am really feeling sad. I know that You are arranging the best things for me. And I am sorry for feeling this way. I lift up all my fears to You. To You be the glory. Thank you for everything. And thank You for loving me."
The Lord is good and kind. He provides. And He will forever be with me.
i am grateful
for so many things that are happening in my life right now, the least thing that i should do is to sulk in a corner and feel that things aren't going my way.
yes there are lots of things to complain about.
("the weather is too hot." tops the list.)
but there are also so many things that can make me smile if only i will allow them too.
consider life as a blessing and indeed, it will be a blessing. smile and goodness from all around will flow to you a hundredfold. proclaim life as a gift and everything will be easier. put God in your heart and happiness is just around the corner.
Thank You Lord. <3 happy :) think happy :)
yes there are lots of things to complain about.
("the weather is too hot." tops the list.)
but there are also so many things that can make me smile if only i will allow them too.
consider life as a blessing and indeed, it will be a blessing. smile and goodness from all around will flow to you a hundredfold. proclaim life as a gift and everything will be easier. put God in your heart and happiness is just around the corner.
Thank You Lord. <3 happy :) think happy :)
rundown of events
Hello there my dear blogger! :)
Today marks the concert of International Superstar Justin Bieber in the Philippines. Okay, that is a lame start. Haha. I am watching the News right now and almost every channel on tv talks about this event. Well, I have nothing against J.B. I think I even like some of his songs and I think he's really talented. Moving on....
Recently, I have been very vigilant in watching news shows. It's because somehow, in the back of my mind, I always look for that something... for a news on THAT particular place.. yet on the other hand, I also wish that no big news really come out from there, since most often, news only contain negative reports or happenings.
Okay let's get to the point.
For the past months, news about JAPAN have been circulating in the internet and it is not difficult at all to search for the latest events and happenings there. After the tsunami and the nuclear problem, Japan has always been in the limelight of international media. The thing is every time I search for the latest news there, my heart jumps and somehow I feel nervous.
Just a few weeks before the earthquake, I was in Japan. And I got the job offer that I have dreamed of getting for almost the duration of my college life. I saw how beautiful the country is and how disciplined the people there are. I can not say even a single thing that I did not like about the country. Well, I only stayed for about 5 days... The people were nice and friendly. There were so many nice places to see. The country is very clean. Everything is nice. The environment is teeming with culture, science and spice. It's a breath of fresh air to stay in such a wonderful place even for just a few days.
This is why it hurts me to see how the event of March 11 has devastated such a very good country, making me think that everything is still not placed in the hands of men. Moreover, the earthquake that occurred has not only shattered buildings and homes in the Tohoku region. About more than a hundred miles away, a hoping heart's dreams were shaken too.
Yes, people in Japan were grieving and at the same time, I was grieving too for the dreams that I have somehow imagined myself of having once I return to Japan land to fulfill the work that I have gotten. I thank the Lord for having presented to me such a good opportunity which will allow me to help my family and to garner good experiences which can help me grow as an individual. But with the earthquake and the nuclear problem, I am now placed in a situation wherein what I want is possibly in conflict with the reality.
I am now in a state of confusion. Of whether I should still go or not for what I originally have planned. I ask God about what He wants and I know that He will give me an answer. I know that fear should not reign in one's heart but we all know that prevention is better than cure. I have other options here and I believe that they are also good granted that I will do my best in everything I do. But what do I really want? Should I let an opportunity of a lifetime just pass?
It's a long road ahead. And only God knows the future. The steps that we take today will determine what will happen in the future and I know that I must pray hard and do my best wherever God wants me to be. To God be the glory, forever and always.
Today marks the concert of International Superstar Justin Bieber in the Philippines. Okay, that is a lame start. Haha. I am watching the News right now and almost every channel on tv talks about this event. Well, I have nothing against J.B. I think I even like some of his songs and I think he's really talented. Moving on....
Recently, I have been very vigilant in watching news shows. It's because somehow, in the back of my mind, I always look for that something... for a news on THAT particular place.. yet on the other hand, I also wish that no big news really come out from there, since most often, news only contain negative reports or happenings.
Okay let's get to the point.
For the past months, news about JAPAN have been circulating in the internet and it is not difficult at all to search for the latest events and happenings there. After the tsunami and the nuclear problem, Japan has always been in the limelight of international media. The thing is every time I search for the latest news there, my heart jumps and somehow I feel nervous.
Just a few weeks before the earthquake, I was in Japan. And I got the job offer that I have dreamed of getting for almost the duration of my college life. I saw how beautiful the country is and how disciplined the people there are. I can not say even a single thing that I did not like about the country. Well, I only stayed for about 5 days... The people were nice and friendly. There were so many nice places to see. The country is very clean. Everything is nice. The environment is teeming with culture, science and spice. It's a breath of fresh air to stay in such a wonderful place even for just a few days.
This is why it hurts me to see how the event of March 11 has devastated such a very good country, making me think that everything is still not placed in the hands of men. Moreover, the earthquake that occurred has not only shattered buildings and homes in the Tohoku region. About more than a hundred miles away, a hoping heart's dreams were shaken too.
Yes, people in Japan were grieving and at the same time, I was grieving too for the dreams that I have somehow imagined myself of having once I return to Japan land to fulfill the work that I have gotten. I thank the Lord for having presented to me such a good opportunity which will allow me to help my family and to garner good experiences which can help me grow as an individual. But with the earthquake and the nuclear problem, I am now placed in a situation wherein what I want is possibly in conflict with the reality.
I am now in a state of confusion. Of whether I should still go or not for what I originally have planned. I ask God about what He wants and I know that He will give me an answer. I know that fear should not reign in one's heart but we all know that prevention is better than cure. I have other options here and I believe that they are also good granted that I will do my best in everything I do. But what do I really want? Should I let an opportunity of a lifetime just pass?
It's a long road ahead. And only God knows the future. The steps that we take today will determine what will happen in the future and I know that I must pray hard and do my best wherever God wants me to be. To God be the glory, forever and always.
hello there!
been lost but now i am back.
i have skipped a lot of occasions that were actually worth blogging so i will just enumerate them here.
MY GRADUATION. yes, thank God i am not a College student anymore!!! i am a GRADUATE! :D
what else?
hm, oh well maybe that event is worth a lot... and means a lot, especially for my parents.
i have always decided to be more active here but i always forget to do so. i also promised to put more pictures but i also always fail to do so. what's happening?
well, maybe, a little change is good. maybe i should really try to blog more often. nah, i am rumbling to myself.
kidding aside, i was actually surprised with the different comments on my chatbox. i did not think that some people are reading this.. oh and i forgot, i received a comment about my usage of punctuation marks and capitalization.. and yeah, maybe i should improve on this one.
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Starting now, I will be a renewed blogger :D
Ok, I promise, I will really try my best :D
i have skipped a lot of occasions that were actually worth blogging so i will just enumerate them here.
MY GRADUATION. yes, thank God i am not a College student anymore!!! i am a GRADUATE! :D
what else?
hm, oh well maybe that event is worth a lot... and means a lot, especially for my parents.
i have always decided to be more active here but i always forget to do so. i also promised to put more pictures but i also always fail to do so. what's happening?
well, maybe, a little change is good. maybe i should really try to blog more often. nah, i am rumbling to myself.
kidding aside, i was actually surprised with the different comments on my chatbox. i did not think that some people are reading this.. oh and i forgot, i received a comment about my usage of punctuation marks and capitalization.. and yeah, maybe i should improve on this one.
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Starting now, I will be a renewed blogger :D
Ok, I promise, I will really try my best :D
today, i commit myself to healthier living!
YES.
i promise these words to myself.
i believe that my college life has deprived me so much of a healthy life.
my brain cells are already shouting ABUSE!!!!!!
sometimes i don't know if i still excel at grammar. maybe i need a refresher course or maybe i just need to read a lot of books again!!! NAH.
i will start with this healthy lifestyle. i promise. NO STAYING BEYOND 1:30 AM. No, make that 1AM. STOP ABUSING YOURSELF, Lence.
Lord, thank you for all of your blessings. I am sorry if at times, i am not able to take care of them.
To You, i surrender everything. AMEN.
i promise these words to myself.
i believe that my college life has deprived me so much of a healthy life.
my brain cells are already shouting ABUSE!!!!!!
sometimes i don't know if i still excel at grammar. maybe i need a refresher course or maybe i just need to read a lot of books again!!! NAH.
i will start with this healthy lifestyle. i promise. NO STAYING BEYOND 1:30 AM. No, make that 1AM. STOP ABUSING YOURSELF, Lence.
Lord, thank you for all of your blessings. I am sorry if at times, i am not able to take care of them.
To You, i surrender everything. AMEN.
i can't think of a title so i'll just place a :)
yeeeeey! i was able to fix my blog AGAIN! look at the new picture -->
that's me :D
i have noticed that my previous posts were kinda sad or desperate or whatever. i believe that this blog is personal and yes i tolerate my sudden bursts of emotions. maybe just a few years from now, after i experience the real world out there, i will laugh at myself for having been so stressed for trivial matters. but what can i say? i live now. haha. and i realy feel good in venting out some of my emotions here. maybe it's because not a lot of people know this web-space or maybe i have just grown a very deep relationship with this blog.
thinking of it. this has been with me since like the end of 2007. and now, with God's grace, i am to finish College. thank You Lord! even though i was not able to update this regularly, i know that somehow, it contains relevant information about what i have experienced for the past years... and for that, i am really thankful.
now, i am planning to update this more and put some pictures too! yes, words are nice but visual representations are a plus! and it is easier to remember with the pictures :D
i will really try to update this more often :D
**i suddenly feel sleepy and i ought to sleep early. i have been abusing myself in terms of sleep habits. ciao for now.
that's me :D
i have noticed that my previous posts were kinda sad or desperate or whatever. i believe that this blog is personal and yes i tolerate my sudden bursts of emotions. maybe just a few years from now, after i experience the real world out there, i will laugh at myself for having been so stressed for trivial matters. but what can i say? i live now. haha. and i realy feel good in venting out some of my emotions here. maybe it's because not a lot of people know this web-space or maybe i have just grown a very deep relationship with this blog.
thinking of it. this has been with me since like the end of 2007. and now, with God's grace, i am to finish College. thank You Lord! even though i was not able to update this regularly, i know that somehow, it contains relevant information about what i have experienced for the past years... and for that, i am really thankful.
now, i am planning to update this more and put some pictures too! yes, words are nice but visual representations are a plus! and it is easier to remember with the pictures :D
i will really try to update this more often :D
**i suddenly feel sleepy and i ought to sleep early. i have been abusing myself in terms of sleep habits. ciao for now.
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