sometimes it just gets frustrating...

...especially when you have given much but still came short.

it is with a heavy heart that i am writing this.
but i know that after i leave this web page, i will, and should be, better.

for the past days, i have experienced inefficiency. and i feel bad about it.
i need to change this ASAP.
i am on the last leg of my college year and i don't really have to panic.
i know that God is with me all the time.
misfortunes are sometimes way of realizing how much you've been neglecting and mishandling.
at least now, i know that there's something wrong.
and with this, i can start again.
and be productive again. and be better again.

all these, i do with God's help, AMEN.

p.s. sorry blogger for not being able to blog about the happy things.

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say you are well and all is well with you and God shall hear your words and make them true.

it disappoints

minsan, nakakasad lang.
nakakadisappoint when things don't go your way. but i guess, there's noting to do but beat yourself.
to You Lord, i surrender everything. AMEN.

twisted

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:(

be serious! okay?

okay so i really need to do a lot of things today. and wala lang.
i realize na hindi na to biro biro lang.
i need to make progress with my thesis and understand every single component of it. it's not like i can depend on anyone for it, except for God of course! i must be serious about my tasks, understand every aspect of what i am doing and do what i need to do.

anyway.
i tried Laser Tag! it was really nice. ang saya bumaril. nakakawala ng stress! and mas challenging kalaban ang mga lalaki! ahahahah!!!

watched Eclipse too...
it was nice. mas okay kesa sa mga dati.

i want to try a lot of things.

anyway, trinay ko rin yung sa Max's.
naka-3 lang ako sa chicken all you can nila. hahaha.
napakagaling ko! haha sayang yun :P

hm, as for now, before i dream of doing bigger things, kelangan ko na muna magawa lahat ng mga small or not so small things. yes, like my thesis.

God blesses me! Amen.

a day not well planned

earlier this day, i tweeted that i need to survive.
thank God, yes i am still alive. :D

CE22 HW was finished, thanks to the help of a friend.
No Psych101!! oh yeah! (pero sad kasi may sakit daw si Mam Bea)
BC10 was fun :) and although we got reprimanded for our very 'high school-ish" work, the subject ended well.
the first UP IECEP General Assembly was also successful! dami nakakakain and nakapunta! yey! :D

when my day started, i was very nervous and to an extent, panicky.
hahaha! but then, it was finished well. Thank you God! :)

now, i am blogging. ahha.
parang antok na ako but I still need to do a lot of things!!!!

sometimes, i feel like my entries here ate being mababaw na.
sorry.
i need to read again.
and improve my vocabs.
and everything.

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frustration corner:
i really wish that i am a fashionista.
hahahaha.
but right now, i don't have means and the time.
sana, someday.

emo corner:
GRAVITY is playing on my background!
oh yeah!!!
GRAVITY, throw it all away.

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serious corner:
THESIS mode :)

on about being responsible...

today, i am re-publishing my BLOGSPOT Account.

this one has been with me since way way back and i am really happy that when i re-read my older posts, i am somehow reminded of my experiences before.

looking back, i can say that a a lot has changed. and a lot is different.

there were some things that i am proud of and there were those that i am not but the bottom line is that i learned and that i now know better.

right now,there are so many things that i want to achieve. i really want to be a better person and be able to do more.--to do the stuff that i dream of doing and to become that person that i picture myself to be.

well, everyday is a little step... and i know that even though right now, there are pressing matters that i need to prioritize, i should not really lose myself and my goals in the process.

i am always praying that i can have a good future but then again, as cliche as it sounds, the future still depends on the present. and as optimistic as it may sound, the future is molded by my present and so i must invest in my today.

sometimes, i really think that i can write those self-help or inspiration books. haha. dreaming big ha? wala lang.... it just seems that sometimes, my thoughts are leaning on the borderline of corny and too-much-inspiration.

anyway, right now, i have to finish all of may tasks so that i can have more sleep later :p hahaha. Lord, ikaw na po bahala sa akin :)

starting again

yes i am back and will be updating this more often.
i realized that it is good to talk to someone, and in this case, my blogger.

honestly, for the past days, i've felt quite the whole range of emotions.
a centrum of feelings, emotions, thoughts, desires gushing over me as i firmly hold my position.
i believe that my deprivation of sleep has been the main culprit for all these.

mainly, i'd like to think that i can surpass everything while staying happy and doing the right thing.

this academic year, i shall be starting my Undergraduate Student Project.
i am really praying hard for this one.

i know that God guides me in all my decisions. and i am thankful for that.

P.S.
Be armed! i shall be posting more posts now :D