okay. yes i mean the title. REALLY.
hm, i was a bit disappointed with myself knowing that i have spent this whole time online... and not so much in a very educational or worthwhile manner.
for the first time, i am admitting....i have stalked someone... someone whom i don't know. someone whom i became quite interested in due to the very existence of the so called feeling that i have last posted. and you know what, i have learned a thing...that is not to retain the feelings that have urged the last post. yes, this is it.... hm, i don't think that i am that prepared for this surge of inconsistencies...i am now regaining and rebuilding my defenses... not for the sake of it but for the best. yes i mean it. i need to move now...move for the acad me.
last night, a friend?? or rather a classmate was bugging me down with all this physics terms.honestly!!i thought i was quite a geek but after chatting with him, haha, i am totally, -no words-... he is so geek geek geek in a positive way perhaps. yeh he knows that i have already finished my math series and he kept on askin me about math terms.like divergence and curls and the likes.. he is talking to me like a professor, challenging me with questions such as, "what will be its effect on the gravitational force orientation? how can i apply stoke's theorem with this?" WAW. i told him that I and my friends don't usually discuss those kinds of things outside class but he just kept on asking me those things.......i was quite embarrassed when i was not even sure about my answers because honestly, i am not taking them seriously..... hey, why would i stress myself thinking if div is an empty vector just because he did not find that fact in his physics forums? well, he came from a science HS, what can i say and he just loves physics... whoa. i admire his love for the subject, reALLY. and i am not pissed by his action, i was just quite perhaps surprised that he is like that with me. hahah, with me??? hm, oh well...
but the thing is it has brought in good realizations :)
i knew it...sometimes, learning your lessons is not enough.you really have to motivate yourself to study beyond the lessons assigned.well, retaining them in your mind is another thing! recently, i had a conversation with one of my closest teacher, well if not really the closest! in our conversation, i pointed out the fact that most often, the things you study don't really remain there ..okie, so actually i told him that when i was in high school, i used to memorize everything for an exam in social studies or music..memorize the terms, that's what i mean.during the exams, chances are, i get them all perfect....but after a week or so, or after a month, ask me about them and i'm going to be like,,,, blank. heheh, i know the feeling. actually, even up to now, after an exam, it seems to me that i already need to relax myself and free my mind form those things. it seems that things are not being put to heart. and of course that is not good! i remember, i totally enjoyed mythology. when i was in fourth year high school, i think i was the only person in our class who went out of the way in order to research, read, study and enjoy, yah i did enjoy them so much!, the mythical creatures. but now i am quite disappointed, again, hehe, that i can't seem to remember all of them, even the trivias themselves. ..well, i cant blame my brain cells because things need follow-ups and i have not grabbed any mythology materials since then.hm, but anyway, the point that my teacher told me is that our brain is highly selective and that also depends on our attitude. if our brain knows that the information has to be retained$, they will most probably be there .. so that explains why up to now, i know addition! hhe, just kidding. of course, i also need practice, reinforcement and continuous update.
honestly, i would like to know MORE. i know the internet is a perfect tool for that but perhaps, there are just so many distractions when you are online. i am someone who still need to explore the world of the academe. i would like to be the best of who i am. i need to improve myself, my capabilities, because i need to enhance God's blessings for me... hm, there are just times when i seem to sound like a child, not knowing her thing. honestly. and i don't like that.
okay. so i am making a promise to myself........
i am challenging myself. well, i may deviate sooner or later but this entry is a reminder that i should not stop from growing in all aspects. i need to be better!
i am hungry for betterment.
in the process, i can inspire people, help others, alleviate the conditions of my surroundings,.
i don't need to be insecure, timid or unsure... i am waking up all my cells, and we know that if i would really desire to go out of my shell, i can... is till have these hidden potentials and i must unleash them.... though a quotation said that using more percentage of your brain is a sign of less competitiveness, i will continue to believe that i must now explore my facets and probabilities and launch a higher brain percentage, if such thing exists..
hm, i am reading this for myself now..... and God will be my guide...
Lord, you are my only sanctuary and it is with you that i start to make this.
we can do this LORD.
and we just know that we need to stop with regards to him.
let us study with all our might. OUR plans LORD. our plans.... ;)
don't stop learning!!!!
be academic with a heart. be matured . be confident. be what you need to be for God! :)
hm, i was a bit disappointed with myself knowing that i have spent this whole time online... and not so much in a very educational or worthwhile manner.
for the first time, i am admitting....i have stalked someone... someone whom i don't know. someone whom i became quite interested in due to the very existence of the so called feeling that i have last posted. and you know what, i have learned a thing...that is not to retain the feelings that have urged the last post. yes, this is it.... hm, i don't think that i am that prepared for this surge of inconsistencies...i am now regaining and rebuilding my defenses... not for the sake of it but for the best. yes i mean it. i need to move now...move for the acad me.
last night, a friend?? or rather a classmate was bugging me down with all this physics terms.honestly!!i thought i was quite a geek but after chatting with him, haha, i am totally, -no words-... he is so geek geek geek in a positive way perhaps. yeh he knows that i have already finished my math series and he kept on askin me about math terms.like divergence and curls and the likes.. he is talking to me like a professor, challenging me with questions such as, "what will be its effect on the gravitational force orientation? how can i apply stoke's theorem with this?" WAW. i told him that I and my friends don't usually discuss those kinds of things outside class but he just kept on asking me those things.......i was quite embarrassed when i was not even sure about my answers because honestly, i am not taking them seriously..... hey, why would i stress myself thinking if div is an empty vector just because he did not find that fact in his physics forums? well, he came from a science HS, what can i say and he just loves physics... whoa. i admire his love for the subject, reALLY. and i am not pissed by his action, i was just quite perhaps surprised that he is like that with me. hahah, with me??? hm, oh well...
but the thing is it has brought in good realizations :)
i knew it...sometimes, learning your lessons is not enough.you really have to motivate yourself to study beyond the lessons assigned.well, retaining them in your mind is another thing! recently, i had a conversation with one of my closest teacher, well if not really the closest! in our conversation, i pointed out the fact that most often, the things you study don't really remain there ..okie, so actually i told him that when i was in high school, i used to memorize everything for an exam in social studies or music..memorize the terms, that's what i mean.during the exams, chances are, i get them all perfect....but after a week or so, or after a month, ask me about them and i'm going to be like,,,, blank. heheh, i know the feeling. actually, even up to now, after an exam, it seems to me that i already need to relax myself and free my mind form those things. it seems that things are not being put to heart. and of course that is not good! i remember, i totally enjoyed mythology. when i was in fourth year high school, i think i was the only person in our class who went out of the way in order to research, read, study and enjoy, yah i did enjoy them so much!, the mythical creatures. but now i am quite disappointed, again, hehe, that i can't seem to remember all of them, even the trivias themselves. ..well, i cant blame my brain cells because things need follow-ups and i have not grabbed any mythology materials since then.hm, but anyway, the point that my teacher told me is that our brain is highly selective and that also depends on our attitude. if our brain knows that the information has to be retained$, they will most probably be there .. so that explains why up to now, i know addition! hhe, just kidding. of course, i also need practice, reinforcement and continuous update.
honestly, i would like to know MORE. i know the internet is a perfect tool for that but perhaps, there are just so many distractions when you are online. i am someone who still need to explore the world of the academe. i would like to be the best of who i am. i need to improve myself, my capabilities, because i need to enhance God's blessings for me... hm, there are just times when i seem to sound like a child, not knowing her thing. honestly. and i don't like that.
okay. so i am making a promise to myself........
I AM IMPROVINGtime to be smart in its deepest and truest essence..
MYSELF IN TERMS OF MY KNOWLEDGE
i am challenging myself. well, i may deviate sooner or later but this entry is a reminder that i should not stop from growing in all aspects. i need to be better!
i am hungry for betterment.
in the process, i can inspire people, help others, alleviate the conditions of my surroundings,.
i don't need to be insecure, timid or unsure... i am waking up all my cells, and we know that if i would really desire to go out of my shell, i can... is till have these hidden potentials and i must unleash them.... though a quotation said that using more percentage of your brain is a sign of less competitiveness, i will continue to believe that i must now explore my facets and probabilities and launch a higher brain percentage, if such thing exists..
hm, i am reading this for myself now..... and God will be my guide...
Lord, you are my only sanctuary and it is with you that i start to make this.
we can do this LORD.
and we just know that we need to stop with regards to him.
let us study with all our might. OUR plans LORD. our plans.... ;)
don't stop learning!!!!
AND NOW, LORD, WHAT FUTURE DO I HAVE?LORD, now, stop dallying.
YOU ARE MY ONLY HOPE;
FROM ALL MY SINS, DELIVER ME;
LET ME NOT BE THE TAUNT OF FOOLS.
be academic with a heart. be matured . be confident. be what you need to be for God! :)
Lord, i offer you
my life and everything i am. amen.
let us be prepared oh Lord.... the
last day of dallying. move for the better . Everything is for your glory. Amen!
whatever i have Lord, it is Yours.
