Tears

When feeling down
Just let the tears flow
You might think it's futile
But in life, that's the only way to go
Be honest with what you feel,
And acknowledge the truth that you don't wanna hear

Sometimes you have to accept,
that crying is the only way..
And hope for the best
That tomorrow, God is planning for a better day.

God's timing

Whenever I feel that things aren't going exactly the way I would have wanted them to be or if others seem to get what they want when I am actually left out, trying to increase my patience and make the beat out of what I have, - I always end up thinking, and I know, deep down in my heart that God is planning something very nice for me and that He won't let me down. Yes, God's timing might be different from what I hope it would be but His timing is always the best. And yes, we can never outdo God in giving. He loves me and He knows what's best for me.

Lord God, I will just hang on here and wait. Because I know, deep down in my heart, You won't let me down. I love you too.

Blog whenever you like it

There are times when I feel the urge to blog but I stop myself from doing so..
Why? Because I am always reminded of what my teacher once said, and I quote,
"Why will I give the world  reasons to laugh at me when I blog about sad things?"

And therefore, there were those several moments when I felt so down and sad when things did not go the way I would have wanted them to... or when I had too many complaints about the things I am undergoing or just whatsoever moments wherein I would like to pour my heart out. Yes, there were several instances wherein I literally stopped myself from blogging.

I don't want the world to judge me based on my thoughts on my blog back then.. but thinking about it now, really, what was I thinking???? THAT WAS CRAZY. and that defeats the purpose of blogging and why I started this blog in the first place.

This is my hidden haven. A place wherein my thoughts can flow freely because this is my little space. This is where I can write my opinions as long as they don't damage someone else's life or reputation. This is me. And I should never be shy about it.

Most of the time, when I feel that my brain is so confused from all the things that are happening, blogging serves as my only therapy.... so stopping myself from blogging is not a good thing at all. PLUS, recently, I am feeling that I am gradually losing my ENGLISH SKILLS. WTH!

I don't know if I need to start picking up a grammar book or what, I hope I am still not in that level but I just feel that I am losing the natural tendency to think like a native english speaker. Yes, I am struggling. I don't know if this is because of my recently (since last year) acquired Japanese skills but this is not allowable at all! THIS IS ... OMG. I can not think of the right adjective. I guess that proves my point. What is happening to me. HAHAHA.

Therefore, I have decided to go back to blogging my thoughts. And this time, I am gonna go back to the days when writing was one my passions and wherein getting creative with words was part of my hobbies.

I will rekindle the writer in me! And I am excited to start this journey! ;)