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Getting sad gets you nowhere..

I don't know if it is hormones or it is just me.. But here I am again, in that point where the word sadness feels so close to my heart. I hate it, this state. This feeling. And I know that while being sad does not do me any good, I can't help but give in and be stupid. 

I want to think of happiness. I want to see myself in a state where I won't cry just with simple thoughts about the things that make me sad.

Sometimes, I ask myself what happened to me?

Before, I have always taken pride in being a pro-active person, one who will not be put down by challenges but one who rises and beats the odds. 

I want to be that kind of person. I know that our lives practically consist of a series of choices and as much as I can, I choose to be positive, happy and nice. But I don't know. It just seems that I am always pulled back to that hole where my loneliness does not have the heart to contain itself. That hole where I become so familiar with the word sadness that I need to repeat the word happiness over and over just to grasp its meaning. 

I am not depressed. But I think I have taken the wrong path in dealing with my emotions.

Before, I told myself that I should be honest with myself and feel what I need to feel in that moment. Yes, I still believe that it is better to acknowledge what you are feeling. If you feel unhappy, go and be unhappy. But don't linger. Don't get addicted to loneliness. 

For the past few days, I have been thinking that I am sad and thus I've sunk even deeper into sadness. I guess it is already a common knowledge that what you think has a great chance of becoming true and apparently, it can not be even more true in this case.

Getting lonely will get you nowhere.

It will lead you to get stuck in a situation when you could have spent your time thinking of ways to improve your life.  

In fact, I think there is a bog difference between saying the words 'unhappy' and 'sad'. I think, from now on, I will prefer to say unhappy because at least happy is still there.

I know that these are just challenges and that God never gives us anything that we can't handle. Sometimes it might be too tempting to get addicted to unhappiness because it might be the easy resort, but I sincerely believe that if we look close enough, we can find happiness in moat aspects of life.

One does not need to give up. One has to gather his or her strength to go on and keep fighting. We may not always get what we want but there will always be good things awaiting for us.

Today, I decide to be happy and to look at the positive things. I might be faking it but I know that when you don't have any other choice, most of the time, it is better to be happy than to be sad.

Just do the things that can make you happy. Find self growth and trust God that everything happens for a reason. Look up! Cheer up! Stay positive and stay excellent!

And don't forget to smile..



Bubble

I was okay. I was trying to be okay. I was trying to make the beat out of the situation. But you came and burst my bubble. I don't know which is better. Having to pretend that everything is okay and eventually feeling okay. Or being faced again will all the issues and perplexities when you know the only solution is to accept. Sometimes, I think, what have I done wrong to deserve this.
But then i stop thinking about it because I know God does not punish.

What should I do.