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High Speed

Do you sometimes feel that life and years pass by so fast?
I recently looked at my facebook photos and felt that events that happened 5 years ago seemed not so far away. 5 years flew by so quickly yet I was made to think what really happened or what I did with that time.

Anyway, the past is a past for a reason but the future hold beautiful promises. I thank God for all the things that are happening in my life and for being with me all the time. I am looking forward to tomorrow, knowing that He is with me and He wishes me well, and that He is guiding me to use His blessings and gifts for my good and the good the world.

Hobbies

Do you ever have a hard time talking about something during drinking parties? I sometimes feel this way. I think the main reason is that I don’t really have some hobbies that I feel strongly or passionate about. Must re-think about this.

I will try to involve myself with more stuff for recreation.
Some ideas for new hobbies:

Baking
Blogging
Watching Documentaries in Netflix
Learning technical of photography
Learning finance and actually trying it out
Learn Chinese again and watch more Chinese Dramas
Read more book (I am putting a 15-book target for myself)
Run again and do yoga again (maybe I will not try Swimming again this year)
Travel again


Okay, maybe I will stop here and give you a feedback at the end of the year on what happened about these hobbies that I posted here.

Hello There 2018

It has been ages since I last blogged. I feel that whatever writing skills I had have been going down the drain for the last few years, and before I totally lose it, I want to restart again.

Sometimes, I don’t feel like blogging because I just don’t want to put all my thoughts out there and get judged for them. But I guess, I should get past that stage and just go back to my honest self who has always found relief in writing. 

Let me start tonight by putting here, with the world to see, some thoughts that I have at this very moment:

• When will I feel home? Do you ever feel this in your career? Like you are in a transition stage or period? That you are not yet doing what you are meant to be doing? You’re staying for a reason and thinking that after that reason, you can finally move forward. But what happens between now and then?
• I overuse social media. I waste a lot of time doing nothing on the internet. Sometimes I think that I should just make a living out of it. But then again, I waste so much time that I don’t have enough time to do the productive stuff.
• Autopilot mode of living. I got used to my current environment that I usually leave and go home on autopilot. Maybe the fact that Japan is more or less a safe country in terms of pickpockets make it easier to be on autopilot mode.
• I want to do better because I deserve better. I have within me the momentum and the energy to do what I need to do and I just need to move and get into action.

Hope that I can write something to be proud of in the next days or months to come. Ciao!

Hello 2017!

Tenth year of my blog this year.
Just dropping by to tell you that I will be trying to post more often, and this time it is for real.

I am working towards some positive changes in my life and with God with me every step of the way, I hope things turn out to be for the best.

I missed writing and I missed blogging.

Thank you blogger for being with me all these years! <3 p="">

Just Do It

I am not sure if I have already previously written a blogpost with the similar title.
And this statement proves some things.

First, is that my memory is failing me at this moment.
Second, is that I have been feeling a recurring sentiment for some time now...
And third, is that I haven't managed to solve or to improve the current situation.

Battling with yourself is never easy, especially when you know what you want to do yet you can't seem to do it. The reasons? All the alibis you can imagine.

I have always been telling myself to push myself to the limits, achieve whatever I can while I haven't reached my 30s yet and experience greater things that are outside of my comfort zone. Yet, then and again, I find myself typing this blog post, "complaining" on how my battle with myself seems to not go anywhere.

It is a battle of productivity... of achieving your dreams and goals... of making it bigger.
Ooops.... Now, let me stop this train of thought for a while and write something about a particular moment when I wrote the text above.

"achieving your dreams and goals..." "making it bigger"
I cringed. What do these words mean? What do I want to do? What are my dreams and goals?? Where do I want to make it big????

They say that writing your thoughts can help you think more clearly and at this moment, I just hit on a realization that my dreams and goals are not really clear to me... and maybe that is the main reason why my battle with productivity is not moving forward. I don't see an end goal.

I know I want to have my own lovely family, have kids and have a comfortable life.
Career wise? I can see myself working for something with value and impact. Maybe being a boss for a well known company or maybe even working for the government. I have some other ideas which I choose not to share here, but other than that, I have no clear picture.

What do I want in life?
I guess I need to ask this to myself again and now, do better in finding answers.

I have been stuck here in this country for almost 5 years now, and it is slowly turning into my comfort zone. I am not sure if I am really making the most out of my 20s by being here and just working. I know I can do better and do better if only I start moving.

All this time, what I was thinking is that I lack self discipline that's why I can't seem to be productive. No. What I lack is a clearer vision of what I want to do with my life and what I want to achieve... that's why I can't seem to push myself harder and give myself enough motivation to be more productive.

...And I only realized that while writing this blog post. Cringed again.

I have set some previous goals before but it seems that they were all written in water, with no concrete timeline, plans and specifics.

I guess I have to re-evaluate my dreams and goals and then just do it. Time is ticking but I can't really say that I have wasted 5 years of my life here, because with it also come some achievements and good experiences... It is time to move forward.

The past is called past for a reason, and the future brings promises with it. And first, I have to know, I have to clearly picture... What do I want for myself after all of these? What future promise do I want to claim for myself? What are my dreams? What is my ultimate goal????

Just do it does not make sense without a purpose.

I have to search mine and  picture it clearly in my head.
I have to have an idea on what can wake me up in the morning, driven with passion and enthusiasm.
I have to know where I want to go.

And maybe, just maybe, if I can do these things,
I can naturally gravitate towards the realization of my dreams.





Go get it.

If life does not give it to you, go get it for yourself and make it happen. Disappointments come and go but what will forever remain is your own will to make things better and achieve your dreams. It might be difficult. You might get impatient. But never ever lose sight of what you know you were meant to be.

Why 26 feels so different from 25

I just turned 26 around 16 minutes ago. And it feels so different from last year.

I am not sure why but I am somehow feeling the pressure. I only have 4 years before being 30 and it somehow makes me think if I am already doing concrete steps for me to achieve the things I want for myself.

10 years ago, around this time, I think I just received the news that I passed the entrance exam for the premiere state university in my country. I was overjoyed, thankful, blessed. There were so many possibilities and things to look forward to.

Fast forward to today, I am still thankful and blessed. Joyful, I guess so!
I can say that I am proud of what I have become in the past 10 years-of the things I have achieved, places I have been too, people I have met, things I have tried and accomplished. Who would have thought that I will brave a land where English is not really used in everyday life, and learn a completely new way of expressing myself. Who would have thought that I will be as independent as I am now when my mother used to do almost everything for me back when I was home.

Above all, I am proud of the fact that I have stayed real and true to my relationship with God, who is the Center and Source of everything. Congrats and Job well done, Lence. Thank You Lord!

I don't really feel that I changed a lot but I know I made changes for the better.
The challenge now is how will I be able to use these 4 years to achieve the remaining dreams I have.

//I want to blog more but I know I want to sleep for tomorrow.

Am I happy? Yes. and I could be happier if I start looking at the bright side of things more.
Am I satisfied? I want to do more. And I know I can do that with God's will, if I only start moving.

Time to move. Time to act. It's time to make things happen for me.