2013 is about to come.
Thank you Lord for 2012!!!
Thank you for all of your blessings!
Most of all, Thank you because I know that with Your great love and grace, 2013 will be a better, happier, healthier and more prosperous year!
I love you and I offer everything to you! :D
Love,
Clarence
You are where you are meant to be.
Recently I have been thinking much if I have been making the right decisions in life. If I chose the right job, the right career, the right people who are surrounding me, the right personality (not that it can really be chosen, but somehow you can adapt a character and choose to live with that, right?), right whatever. I have to admit that it is not so easy thinking about all these things but I guess almost everyone comes to a point wherein they start to question almost everything that they have done and start to wonder "what if".
It's not that I am regretting my decisions, or not enjoying my state right now (in fact, I am having fun with my life right now, thank God)... But maybe it is just because I know I could have chosen another path and I just wonder, our of curiosity maybe, what could have been.
I guess the point of this blog is losing its point but I think, most of the time, we (or maybe just I) are (am) overpowered by the urge to think of useless things and just arrive at random thought experiments that make us (me) wonder more and arrive to nothing but more questions. What did I just type here?
Yes. Life is a big crossroads. And it is always that we have to choose what we want in our lives. Life has no template wherein you need to follow a series of procedures and you are sure to get somewhere. Life is really a matter of choice. And it is almost every moment that you need to make a choice.
My point? I believe that a person is where he was meant to be because in the most banal of words, he has chosen to be there. Yes, some might disagree with this. But I believe that one's course of life springs from a series of decisions that he or she has made throughout a period and whether we want it or not, directly or indirectly, those series of decisions, no matter how minute or insignificant they might have seemed during that time, have all led us to where we are right now. Everything is tangled and interconnected and leads to this moment. And this moment, leads to tomorrow's moment.
And while they say that there could always be "ifs". I say that there are always "what ifs of what ifs" too.
Think about it, if the other thing happened, you might still be thinking "what if" the other thing happened, which is actually the thing that made you think the "what if" in the first place. Vicious cycle. That never ends. Or will only end if you accept the fact that you are where you are because you have chosen it. Better yet, you are where you are because that is where God wants you to be and He has guided you all the way from the start to lead you to the very same spot you are standing right now.
I really think that when you begin to think that everything has a purpose, you stop wandering aimlessly and begin to find more meaning and essence even with the most stupid thing that you can be swallowing from the challenges that are being thrown upon you.
But take note that I am not saying that where you are is where you should stay. Right now, you might or might not like what is happening but like I said, Life is made of choices. And maybe your next decision can just lead to somewhere better or to somewhere more suitable for whatever you think you deserve.
Just hang on there and believe that you are God's masterpiece. And that life is an exciting journey.
It's not that I am regretting my decisions, or not enjoying my state right now (in fact, I am having fun with my life right now, thank God)... But maybe it is just because I know I could have chosen another path and I just wonder, our of curiosity maybe, what could have been.
I guess the point of this blog is losing its point but I think, most of the time, we (or maybe just I) are (am) overpowered by the urge to think of useless things and just arrive at random thought experiments that make us (me) wonder more and arrive to nothing but more questions. What did I just type here?
Yes. Life is a big crossroads. And it is always that we have to choose what we want in our lives. Life has no template wherein you need to follow a series of procedures and you are sure to get somewhere. Life is really a matter of choice. And it is almost every moment that you need to make a choice.
My point? I believe that a person is where he was meant to be because in the most banal of words, he has chosen to be there. Yes, some might disagree with this. But I believe that one's course of life springs from a series of decisions that he or she has made throughout a period and whether we want it or not, directly or indirectly, those series of decisions, no matter how minute or insignificant they might have seemed during that time, have all led us to where we are right now. Everything is tangled and interconnected and leads to this moment. And this moment, leads to tomorrow's moment.
And while they say that there could always be "ifs". I say that there are always "what ifs of what ifs" too.
Think about it, if the other thing happened, you might still be thinking "what if" the other thing happened, which is actually the thing that made you think the "what if" in the first place. Vicious cycle. That never ends. Or will only end if you accept the fact that you are where you are because you have chosen it. Better yet, you are where you are because that is where God wants you to be and He has guided you all the way from the start to lead you to the very same spot you are standing right now.
I really think that when you begin to think that everything has a purpose, you stop wandering aimlessly and begin to find more meaning and essence even with the most stupid thing that you can be swallowing from the challenges that are being thrown upon you.
But take note that I am not saying that where you are is where you should stay. Right now, you might or might not like what is happening but like I said, Life is made of choices. And maybe your next decision can just lead to somewhere better or to somewhere more suitable for whatever you think you deserve.
Just hang on there and believe that you are God's masterpiece. And that life is an exciting journey.
The art of caring
A question is currently baffling me.
That is,
"why do most people choose to care for people who don't care for them?"
It is painstaking to invest emotion, time, feelings, effort to someone who does not even recognize what you're giving up just to please them or make them feel that they are important.
The heck, those people might even have such thick skin that they won't even know or feel that you care.
Or maybe they do but they just don't give a damn.
Then hard and hurtful as it is, why do most people still choose the hard path?
Unanswered messages.
Cold treatment.
It seems you exist in a different universe and he/she is a supreme being not meant to stoop down to your level.
It sucks.
But still, you can't help but care.
And give a damn.
Yes loneliness is underrated.. And being rejected is more underrated.
Sometimes I think that people secretly want to get hurt and get rejected. Because who in his/her right frame of mind will continue to pursue someone who does nothing but make you feel inferior and good for nothing?
I guess that is just someone who is in love. And while the brain can rationalize and think logically, it is the heart that still dominates.
A heart that seems to love getting hurt so much. A heart that sees nothing but blind likelihood of having someone like you back. A heart that is a traitor when you think you have gone past any bitter stage and then return to its poor state again once in a while in the direst of times.
why do people choose to care for people who don't even care?
I guess the answer is just simple.
...because they really have no choice.
That is,
"why do most people choose to care for people who don't care for them?"
It is painstaking to invest emotion, time, feelings, effort to someone who does not even recognize what you're giving up just to please them or make them feel that they are important.
The heck, those people might even have such thick skin that they won't even know or feel that you care.
Or maybe they do but they just don't give a damn.
Then hard and hurtful as it is, why do most people still choose the hard path?
Unanswered messages.
Cold treatment.
It seems you exist in a different universe and he/she is a supreme being not meant to stoop down to your level.
It sucks.
But still, you can't help but care.
And give a damn.
Yes loneliness is underrated.. And being rejected is more underrated.
Sometimes I think that people secretly want to get hurt and get rejected. Because who in his/her right frame of mind will continue to pursue someone who does nothing but make you feel inferior and good for nothing?
I guess that is just someone who is in love. And while the brain can rationalize and think logically, it is the heart that still dominates.
A heart that seems to love getting hurt so much. A heart that sees nothing but blind likelihood of having someone like you back. A heart that is a traitor when you think you have gone past any bitter stage and then return to its poor state again once in a while in the direst of times.
why do people choose to care for people who don't even care?
I guess the answer is just simple.
...because they really have no choice.
The best is yet to come.
I have just bought my ticket home to the Philippines. It took me a long time to decide what airline to use but at last, it has been finalized. I am just so excited to go home right now! I want to hug and spend time with my family and treat them to the things that can make them happy.
Time really flies so fast. I have been living in Japan for more than half a year now and so far, still so good. With God's grace, everyday turns out to be a nice day. Yes, there are those days which were challenging but I guess my general assessment is still great. To God, I owe everything.
Right now, I am setting limits to myself. I want to achieve some more things and become a better person in all aspect everyday. I guess each day I am really trying harder to become better. One step at a time.
Btw the title comes from the daily scripture reading/reflection book. I love today's reflection especially because it coincides with my emotions recently.
Trust in God. Trust in Him that every day is better.
Time really flies so fast. I have been living in Japan for more than half a year now and so far, still so good. With God's grace, everyday turns out to be a nice day. Yes, there are those days which were challenging but I guess my general assessment is still great. To God, I owe everything.
Right now, I am setting limits to myself. I want to achieve some more things and become a better person in all aspect everyday. I guess each day I am really trying harder to become better. One step at a time.
Btw the title comes from the daily scripture reading/reflection book. I love today's reflection especially because it coincides with my emotions recently.
Trust in God. Trust in Him that every day is better.
Inspiration
The title above does not refer to anything in particular.
It is just that I was reminded of how important inspirations are.
Inspiration.
It makes you wake up in the morning even though you lack sleep.
It makes you smile even though you feel that the world is at your shoulders.
It makes you go on.
And believe that life is always worth living for.
Whenever I lose my purpose in life, I always remind myself of the inspirations that I have set in my life.
My family.
My dreams and goals for myself (which include a lot lot lot lot of things...
I want to travel. I want to learn to do so many things.....
The list goes on and on.)
The fact that God put me here in this universe for a purpose and that He loves me. Srsly, God's love is so comforting... more on that some other time)
And it is through these things that I manage to get through my everyday life.
Right now, I can not say that I am inspired in the definition that most people would think about (HS definition)... but I guess, I am inspired by the fact that I am in awe of life and everything it has to offer. And I guess it is just one of the most important things that I always need to be reminded of.
never stop learning, never stop improving yourself.
use your time wisely.
these are three things i must put into heart.
One of those days
...where I have this yearning to never stop learning.
For the past weeks, I feel that I have been wasting my free time in very trivial matters that won't help me grow as a person. 悔しいですが、時間がなくなちゃった。
And yes. The sudden change in language in this post is a big sign that my mind is composing thoughts in nihongo already and my English is messing up.
I guess I need to read English book again. But thing is, I want to read Nihongo book too.
Sometimes, I feel that time is not enough for me to do everything that I want. But the ironic thing is that when I have time, I waste it.
I guess this is one thing I must struve hard to improve. I think the saying "Time is gold." lasted for a reason.
And I should not waste my precious gold bars.
For the past weeks, I feel that I have been wasting my free time in very trivial matters that won't help me grow as a person. 悔しいですが、時間がなくなちゃった。
And yes. The sudden change in language in this post is a big sign that my mind is composing thoughts in nihongo already and my English is messing up.
I guess I need to read English book again. But thing is, I want to read Nihongo book too.
Sometimes, I feel that time is not enough for me to do everything that I want. But the ironic thing is that when I have time, I waste it.
I guess this is one thing I must struve hard to improve. I think the saying "Time is gold." lasted for a reason.
And I should not waste my precious gold bars.
Awesome.
It's time to be awesome again. Lonely period needs to be over. And nowI realize how much time I have wasted.
Abandonment
I know in my heart that I must be making the best out of my experience here but just like all of my excuses when I leave the optimistic zone and face my real emotions, just for this night, let me be myself.
I miss talking and being understood without any language barrier or without thinking/worrying if what I meant was really understood. I guess my face is acting weird recently and I so miss the feeling of laughing for real and mot just faking it for the sake of not being left out. Yes I know it is pathetic. I said I will fight and I will win this battle but it is just so tiring to always be on the preppy side and see the silver lining in every cloud all the time.
I guess my mentor was right when she said that I might experience frustrations again. And yes, she is so right. Living together with global recruits, with people who share the same sentiment with yours is so comforting.
Heck, living some miles away from those people and being practically the sole english speaker is frustrating. Yes I want to learn Nihongo and maybe this is really the best chance to indulge myself with everyday Nihongo and be the beat I can be. Forgive me if I am complaining. I guess I am just tired.
Or maybe the loneliness is creeping in. Because really, I am different. I am not Japanese. And it is sad when you want to understand them and reach out but feel that it is so difficult and sometimes burdensome.
I guess I have to find peace in cold silence. And arrange my face in a manner that is not cold.
Bec srsly, I did not know when it started but my facial expression is becoming colder and colder. I miss sunshine.
I miss the city. Or maybe I just miss he feeling of being cared for and loved. Wth.
I miss talking and being understood without any language barrier or without thinking/worrying if what I meant was really understood. I guess my face is acting weird recently and I so miss the feeling of laughing for real and mot just faking it for the sake of not being left out. Yes I know it is pathetic. I said I will fight and I will win this battle but it is just so tiring to always be on the preppy side and see the silver lining in every cloud all the time.
I guess my mentor was right when she said that I might experience frustrations again. And yes, she is so right. Living together with global recruits, with people who share the same sentiment with yours is so comforting.
Heck, living some miles away from those people and being practically the sole english speaker is frustrating. Yes I want to learn Nihongo and maybe this is really the best chance to indulge myself with everyday Nihongo and be the beat I can be. Forgive me if I am complaining. I guess I am just tired.
Or maybe the loneliness is creeping in. Because really, I am different. I am not Japanese. And it is sad when you want to understand them and reach out but feel that it is so difficult and sometimes burdensome.
I guess I have to find peace in cold silence. And arrange my face in a manner that is not cold.
Bec srsly, I did not know when it started but my facial expression is becoming colder and colder. I miss sunshine.
I miss the city. Or maybe I just miss he feeling of being cared for and loved. Wth.
Title
It sucks big time when you have blogged and then you did something else and when you wanna blog again the one you have started was suddenly gone @.@
Maybe bec I forgot to put a title.
Maybe bec I forgot to put a title.
A Guide To Making Decisions
Because I badly need one to look into every now and then.
OK. So I think I just messed up. Messed up quite badly.
I am not really feeling happy..
I feel so selfish and I feel so embarrassed.
Yes, somehow I am wishing that can turn back time and maybe if I can, I would reverse my decision. I don't know. Or not.
Remorse aside, Oh, I can't set aside remorse.
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DAMN.
I know I am stressed when I eat any food I can see and the only way to stop me is brush my teeth and wear my retainers. I ate a bag of Potato chips without any guilt just because I thought I needed a break. Yes, I am feeling this stress for a week now. I know I don;t have to feel stressed but all of these emotions came from my inability to focus in decision making.
But really, all things aside, and just looking at what I really want, I made the right decision. But considering others and my situation, I feel so bad. So what is more right?
STOP COMPLAINING.
Thus part was meant to give you a guide in making decisions. SO here you go.
---
Making decisions is not always easy but no matter how hard it is, you have to decide and think that making decision is not difficult at all.
Walk your way through it. Breath, and give yourself time to think properly and to consider every other possibility you can think.
1. Define your problem. It is best if you can bring it down to 2. Either YES or NO. BLACK or WHITE. Somehow, choose your bet. Like what you will choose if you are forced to make a decision at that very moment. Take note of that.
2. Ask the opinions of your lovedones. Ask the opinions of people going for YES and people going for NO.
3. Know who is the majority. I know Peer Pressure is a sensitive issue and you don;t really want to do something just because everyone else does it but maybe there is a particular reason why everyone else is doing it. And you have to know that and to consider that. Because suffering the consequences alone is not really fun at all. compare this with your original decision.
4. RESEARCH. Verify. KNOW THE FACTS. Fearing something that might not exist at all is not cool at all. It deprives you of learning and experience. Know the TRUTH. Find FACTS BY YOURSELF. FIND things which can convince you. Find Scientific evidence.
5. PRAY FIRST BEFORE MAKING THE TABLE. PRAY FOR A CLEAR MIND AND HONEST HEART. After you have heard all the sides, STOP ASKING OTHERS. START ASKING YOURSELF. MAKE THE TABLE. You can make 4 boxes. 2 columns, 2 rows. The division is of course, PROS and CONS and the other is MIND and HEART. The Mind and Heart separation can be eliminated depending on whatever you feel but this table is so important. REMEMBER, STOP ASKING OTHER PEOPLE's OPINIONS.It is very important that you sit through the problem and give yourself ample thinking time.
5. While Listing, here are the points to consider.
-What do you really want? Somehow, there is that small percentage of you thinking about one thing. If by any chance, you can't really think of what you want, imagine yourself doing that thing or going with that particular decision. Can you see yourself with that decision?
-Consider the present and future tense effects of the decision. Do you feel nice or can you at least see yourself doing it? How do you feel? get in touch with your emotions. Face the fact. I guess it is important to face the fact that you need to make a decision and with no holds barred, just list everything.
-List the consequences. CAN YOU BEAR THE RESULTS? Which seem more bearable?
-Know yourself. Know your character and your personality and make it a basis if you think you can bear the results. As for me, I think I have a hard time when I know I hurt people. I value relationships. I also value family. I also value health. I am indecisive and I might regret a decision. But I am optimistic. And I believe I have a powerful mind, with God's grace I know I can manage. Thing is, if all these values are conflicting within the decision making itself, it's really bad. And way confusing!
-For whom are you making the decision?
-How long will the results last?
-What will you miss if you choose one over the other? Is it worth it? Can you stand missing it? Will you have one more chance to experience the same thing?
-What will be the effect on the people around you? To your family? To your workplace? To your friends? to yourself?
-Have you done or received things in the past which should affect your decision?
-If you do one thing,can you manage to avoid its consequences? or at least make yourself believe that you won't have the consequences? If then, maybe choosing that is not too bad after all?
-WHICH HAS MORE BENEFITS TO THE PRESENT AND FUTURE?
-Who are you doing it for?
-WHICH HAS SURER EFFECTS?
6. Pray. Pray so hard and entrust everything to GOD. Pray that you are making the right decision. And just in case it is not right, Pray to God to help you make it right.
7. Take the LEAP. Make the decision. And stop thinking about it. THERE YOU HAVE IT. YOU HAVE THE DECISION ALREADY. LISTEN TO NO ONE. You'll only get confused if you listen to others again or of you weigh things again. Believe that God has guided you throughout the process and that whatever happens, GOD IS GOOD and He will not forsake you. TRUST IN HIM that HE helped you in making the BEST decision and that it is what it is good for you.
8. MAKE YOUR DECISION AND NEVER LOOK BACK...because if you do, you might just retract your decision and go the exact opposite. Remember all the efforts you put through in making the decision and reward yourself by going through with it. Most often, you will just regret by changing your decision. I guess instincts also work here. Just go for that first decision and have the guts to stand by what you chose. You are a GROWN UP now and you need to make up your mind. Waste no time.
9. PRAY AGAIN. And enjoy your decision. AND STOP ASKING OTHERS' opinion! JUST GIVE YOURSELF QUIET TIME. AND RELAX.
---
Yes you did your decision. But what if results are not so good?
Well, you can not do anything but to mend it with goodness and with excellence.
If you mess up, it is natural to feel bad and to be lost. But believe that people forget bad things when good things replace them. Do your best to do good things to people and to amend for whatever mistake you have done. Say sorry and be sincere.
If they do not understand you, understand them. Just be patient. Know that you chose that decision and you have to stand by the consequences no matter what. Don;t blame yourself because you never would have known what would really happen.
STOP THE STRESS and JUST BE HAPPY. JUST BE WORRY FREE. If you keep on worrying, your attitude might be more unlikable and you might just aggravate whatever the bad effect of your decision was. So stop worrying and just out a smile on to your face. EXPLAIN YOUR SIDE ONCE and then BE OPTIMISTIC.. FORGET that there was such an issue.
LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE. and PROMISE YOURSELF TO DO BETTER NEXT TIME.
---
Making DECISIONS is really a very important skill and you owe it to yourself to think things through. DO NOT BE SWAYED!
If all else fail and you feel so doomed like I do now, SAY TO YOURSELF
"IT IS OK" 100 times.
Clarence,
SAY YOU ARE WELL AND ALL IS WELL WITH YOU AND GOD SHALL HEAR YOUR WORDS AND MAKE THEM TRUE.
OK?
YOU CAN DO IT.
you are a grown up already.
MAKE A CHOICE AND STAND BY IT.
and believe that YOU MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE with the GRACE OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST.
AMEN.
OK. So I think I just messed up. Messed up quite badly.
I am not really feeling happy..
I feel so selfish and I feel so embarrassed.
Yes, somehow I am wishing that can turn back time and maybe if I can, I would reverse my decision. I don't know. Or not.
Remorse aside, Oh, I can't set aside remorse.
Dbakfucrh732t475q72trx gqugxerqtcr7wr.
DAMN.
I know I am stressed when I eat any food I can see and the only way to stop me is brush my teeth and wear my retainers. I ate a bag of Potato chips without any guilt just because I thought I needed a break. Yes, I am feeling this stress for a week now. I know I don;t have to feel stressed but all of these emotions came from my inability to focus in decision making.
But really, all things aside, and just looking at what I really want, I made the right decision. But considering others and my situation, I feel so bad. So what is more right?
STOP COMPLAINING.
Thus part was meant to give you a guide in making decisions. SO here you go.
---
Making decisions is not always easy but no matter how hard it is, you have to decide and think that making decision is not difficult at all.
Walk your way through it. Breath, and give yourself time to think properly and to consider every other possibility you can think.
1. Define your problem. It is best if you can bring it down to 2. Either YES or NO. BLACK or WHITE. Somehow, choose your bet. Like what you will choose if you are forced to make a decision at that very moment. Take note of that.
2. Ask the opinions of your lovedones. Ask the opinions of people going for YES and people going for NO.
3. Know who is the majority. I know Peer Pressure is a sensitive issue and you don;t really want to do something just because everyone else does it but maybe there is a particular reason why everyone else is doing it. And you have to know that and to consider that. Because suffering the consequences alone is not really fun at all. compare this with your original decision.
4. RESEARCH. Verify. KNOW THE FACTS. Fearing something that might not exist at all is not cool at all. It deprives you of learning and experience. Know the TRUTH. Find FACTS BY YOURSELF. FIND things which can convince you. Find Scientific evidence.
5. PRAY FIRST BEFORE MAKING THE TABLE. PRAY FOR A CLEAR MIND AND HONEST HEART. After you have heard all the sides, STOP ASKING OTHERS. START ASKING YOURSELF. MAKE THE TABLE. You can make 4 boxes. 2 columns, 2 rows. The division is of course, PROS and CONS and the other is MIND and HEART. The Mind and Heart separation can be eliminated depending on whatever you feel but this table is so important. REMEMBER, STOP ASKING OTHER PEOPLE's OPINIONS.It is very important that you sit through the problem and give yourself ample thinking time.
5. While Listing, here are the points to consider.
-What do you really want? Somehow, there is that small percentage of you thinking about one thing. If by any chance, you can't really think of what you want, imagine yourself doing that thing or going with that particular decision. Can you see yourself with that decision?
-Consider the present and future tense effects of the decision. Do you feel nice or can you at least see yourself doing it? How do you feel? get in touch with your emotions. Face the fact. I guess it is important to face the fact that you need to make a decision and with no holds barred, just list everything.
-List the consequences. CAN YOU BEAR THE RESULTS? Which seem more bearable?
-Know yourself. Know your character and your personality and make it a basis if you think you can bear the results. As for me, I think I have a hard time when I know I hurt people. I value relationships. I also value family. I also value health. I am indecisive and I might regret a decision. But I am optimistic. And I believe I have a powerful mind, with God's grace I know I can manage. Thing is, if all these values are conflicting within the decision making itself, it's really bad. And way confusing!
-For whom are you making the decision?
-How long will the results last?
-What will you miss if you choose one over the other? Is it worth it? Can you stand missing it? Will you have one more chance to experience the same thing?
-What will be the effect on the people around you? To your family? To your workplace? To your friends? to yourself?
-Have you done or received things in the past which should affect your decision?
-If you do one thing,can you manage to avoid its consequences? or at least make yourself believe that you won't have the consequences? If then, maybe choosing that is not too bad after all?
-WHICH HAS MORE BENEFITS TO THE PRESENT AND FUTURE?
-Who are you doing it for?
-WHICH HAS SURER EFFECTS?
6. Pray. Pray so hard and entrust everything to GOD. Pray that you are making the right decision. And just in case it is not right, Pray to God to help you make it right.
7. Take the LEAP. Make the decision. And stop thinking about it. THERE YOU HAVE IT. YOU HAVE THE DECISION ALREADY. LISTEN TO NO ONE. You'll only get confused if you listen to others again or of you weigh things again. Believe that God has guided you throughout the process and that whatever happens, GOD IS GOOD and He will not forsake you. TRUST IN HIM that HE helped you in making the BEST decision and that it is what it is good for you.
8. MAKE YOUR DECISION AND NEVER LOOK BACK...because if you do, you might just retract your decision and go the exact opposite. Remember all the efforts you put through in making the decision and reward yourself by going through with it. Most often, you will just regret by changing your decision. I guess instincts also work here. Just go for that first decision and have the guts to stand by what you chose. You are a GROWN UP now and you need to make up your mind. Waste no time.
9. PRAY AGAIN. And enjoy your decision. AND STOP ASKING OTHERS' opinion! JUST GIVE YOURSELF QUIET TIME. AND RELAX.
---
Yes you did your decision. But what if results are not so good?
Well, you can not do anything but to mend it with goodness and with excellence.
If you mess up, it is natural to feel bad and to be lost. But believe that people forget bad things when good things replace them. Do your best to do good things to people and to amend for whatever mistake you have done. Say sorry and be sincere.
If they do not understand you, understand them. Just be patient. Know that you chose that decision and you have to stand by the consequences no matter what. Don;t blame yourself because you never would have known what would really happen.
STOP THE STRESS and JUST BE HAPPY. JUST BE WORRY FREE. If you keep on worrying, your attitude might be more unlikable and you might just aggravate whatever the bad effect of your decision was. So stop worrying and just out a smile on to your face. EXPLAIN YOUR SIDE ONCE and then BE OPTIMISTIC.. FORGET that there was such an issue.
LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE. and PROMISE YOURSELF TO DO BETTER NEXT TIME.
---
Making DECISIONS is really a very important skill and you owe it to yourself to think things through. DO NOT BE SWAYED!
If all else fail and you feel so doomed like I do now, SAY TO YOURSELF
"IT IS OK" 100 times.
Clarence,
SAY YOU ARE WELL AND ALL IS WELL WITH YOU AND GOD SHALL HEAR YOUR WORDS AND MAKE THEM TRUE.
OK?
YOU CAN DO IT.
you are a grown up already.
MAKE A CHOICE AND STAND BY IT.
and believe that YOU MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE with the GRACE OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST.
AMEN.
Indecisiveness
I have always admitted that I am an indecisive person.
Here in Japan, they have a term such as 迷っている(read as MAYOTTEIRU), meaning, lost.
I do not know if that is a good thing but one thing is for sure, it takes away much of my thinking time.
Whenever I need to make a BIG decision, what I always do is to ask the people around me. And then, I pray. And then I do the LIST thing. (The LIST things is when I write two columns and I write the PROs and CONS.) This is a bit tricky because somehow, the thing that I really want wins. And when something wins, I pray again and hope I made the right decision. But then again, I talk to others again. And yes, there is that very big chance that I might be swayed again. And so, I just toss a coin. But then there's a saying that, "If you want to know what you really want, toss a coin. You'll know what your heart knows the moment just before the coin lands."
These methods always work. And what I have noticed for the past events, I always manage to make the DIFFICULT CHOICE.
I did this first when I was choosing my course for my University. I was torn between BROADCAST COMMUNICATIONS, ACCOUNTANCY AND ELECTRONICS ENGINEERING. I instantly crossed out Accountancy because I know that I only included that because people were saying that it you pass that in the entrance exam of the university, you must be really good. But that reason was so pointless. All my high school life, all the activities I did leaned to Broadcasting. I was so active in joining speech contests inside and outside school. I was part of the school paper and I was President of the Student Council. I was a Media Personality, at least in our school. Also, I remember that when I was a kid, I wanted to become a newscaster. (I also wanted to become a scientist back then... because the word scientist was cool when you were a first grader.) In summary, I was fitted to be in the BROADCASTING field. But obviously, I chose ECE.
Back then, I think my father has influenced my decision. But I guess the main reason was that because I wanted to have a family. And truth be told, I did not want to be so famous or to be a celebrity. If I become a newscaster, I might be so famous that I might not be able to live a normal life. This reason was so silly it seems like a joke but actually, I considered this. HAHAHA. But I think the primary reason was that I wanted to challenge myself. And Yes, ECE challenged me. It was a hard course but I managed to survive and until now, I still think that it was the right choice.
I always choose the hard choice.
I always choose the one which my heart wants.
I went to Japan because I followed my heart even though my mind was saying that there were so many risks.
Now, I need to make a decision again. A major decision that can affect my life here. I listened to my heart and it says NO. But when I analyze the situation, sometimes, I wish my heart just says YES.
But the thing is, should you make a decision just because you are afraid of the possible consequences that other people might bestow on you if you don't follow the majority? is doing a good thing really good when you're doing it out of fear and not out of your own willingness?
I recently heard that PARANOIA CAN SAVE LIVES.
If that is so, I wish I can be saved.
I really feel so restless these past few days because of this thing that occupies my mind. I am just praying to God so hard this decision I made is for the best and can not in any way affect anything. I am praying so hard that I can surpass whatever effects this may lead to. I pray so hard that God always lead me to the right and safe path.
Being indecisive is not really a good trait most of the time. And I guess that is one thing I really have to work hard to improve.
Here in Japan, they have a term such as 迷っている(read as MAYOTTEIRU), meaning, lost.
I do not know if that is a good thing but one thing is for sure, it takes away much of my thinking time.
Whenever I need to make a BIG decision, what I always do is to ask the people around me. And then, I pray. And then I do the LIST thing. (The LIST things is when I write two columns and I write the PROs and CONS.) This is a bit tricky because somehow, the thing that I really want wins. And when something wins, I pray again and hope I made the right decision. But then again, I talk to others again. And yes, there is that very big chance that I might be swayed again. And so, I just toss a coin. But then there's a saying that, "If you want to know what you really want, toss a coin. You'll know what your heart knows the moment just before the coin lands."
These methods always work. And what I have noticed for the past events, I always manage to make the DIFFICULT CHOICE.
I did this first when I was choosing my course for my University. I was torn between BROADCAST COMMUNICATIONS, ACCOUNTANCY AND ELECTRONICS ENGINEERING. I instantly crossed out Accountancy because I know that I only included that because people were saying that it you pass that in the entrance exam of the university, you must be really good. But that reason was so pointless. All my high school life, all the activities I did leaned to Broadcasting. I was so active in joining speech contests inside and outside school. I was part of the school paper and I was President of the Student Council. I was a Media Personality, at least in our school. Also, I remember that when I was a kid, I wanted to become a newscaster. (I also wanted to become a scientist back then... because the word scientist was cool when you were a first grader.) In summary, I was fitted to be in the BROADCASTING field. But obviously, I chose ECE.
Back then, I think my father has influenced my decision. But I guess the main reason was that because I wanted to have a family. And truth be told, I did not want to be so famous or to be a celebrity. If I become a newscaster, I might be so famous that I might not be able to live a normal life. This reason was so silly it seems like a joke but actually, I considered this. HAHAHA. But I think the primary reason was that I wanted to challenge myself. And Yes, ECE challenged me. It was a hard course but I managed to survive and until now, I still think that it was the right choice.
I always choose the hard choice.
I always choose the one which my heart wants.
I went to Japan because I followed my heart even though my mind was saying that there were so many risks.
Now, I need to make a decision again. A major decision that can affect my life here. I listened to my heart and it says NO. But when I analyze the situation, sometimes, I wish my heart just says YES.
But the thing is, should you make a decision just because you are afraid of the possible consequences that other people might bestow on you if you don't follow the majority? is doing a good thing really good when you're doing it out of fear and not out of your own willingness?
I recently heard that PARANOIA CAN SAVE LIVES.
If that is so, I wish I can be saved.
I really feel so restless these past few days because of this thing that occupies my mind. I am just praying to God so hard this decision I made is for the best and can not in any way affect anything. I am praying so hard that I can surpass whatever effects this may lead to. I pray so hard that God always lead me to the right and safe path.
Being indecisive is not really a good trait most of the time. And I guess that is one thing I really have to work hard to improve.
Transition
Today, I re-arranged my blogger. I just realized that this blog has been with me for so long now and giving it up would really be a bad option. Besides, I really need to preserve my writing skills since ever since I went out of the Philippines, my English has gradually been deteriorating to some extent.
The title was placed as such primarily because I believe that I am in a transition phase. Yes, figures wise, my numerical age does not stop from increasing every year but experience wise, I think, I am also gaining a lot. I once said that if I have the chance, I will be a person who is able to live her life to the fullest. I believe I am getting there.
I really feel happy with the wonderful opportunities I am receiving right now and as a famous saying says, I just want to enjoy the days as they pass by. I just hope that life will get better and better each day.
To God be the glory!
have not written in ages
yes!! and i have my very busy schedule to blame for that.
but looking back, i think i miss writing.
and i miss putting things to perspective.
i miss writing ideas and i miss being creative.
i said to myself that i should accomplish more once i got the chance to break out with the environment i used to have and i guess, little by little, i do that..
but i guess i am still the old me.
no need to change anyway, right?
there are so many things i want to share.
fears, frustrations, joys, etc.
and maybe as the days go by, i'll be able to put a piece of myself here again.
so that later on, i have something to cherish and look back.
i missed you blogger!
be prepared to be replenished one of these days!!
but looking back, i think i miss writing.
and i miss putting things to perspective.
i miss writing ideas and i miss being creative.
i said to myself that i should accomplish more once i got the chance to break out with the environment i used to have and i guess, little by little, i do that..
but i guess i am still the old me.
no need to change anyway, right?
there are so many things i want to share.
fears, frustrations, joys, etc.
and maybe as the days go by, i'll be able to put a piece of myself here again.
so that later on, i have something to cherish and look back.
i missed you blogger!
be prepared to be replenished one of these days!!
heart
Hello blogger!
It has been a very long time since I wrote here and from that time a lot of things have changed. As you see, I chose the path that is not always taken and now, I find myself enjoying it so far.
But not everything is as smooth. There are some facets of life wherein I find myself confused, perplexed, lost. And it's not easy knowing what to do.
Some years from now, I don't know what will happen and I don't know if I will regret the decisions I have been making. But I just keep praying to God that whatever happens, may His blessing and Love be with me always.
It has been a very long time since I wrote here and from that time a lot of things have changed. As you see, I chose the path that is not always taken and now, I find myself enjoying it so far.
But not everything is as smooth. There are some facets of life wherein I find myself confused, perplexed, lost. And it's not easy knowing what to do.
Some years from now, I don't know what will happen and I don't know if I will regret the decisions I have been making. But I just keep praying to God that whatever happens, may His blessing and Love be with me always.
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