one by one

being a student entails the skill to prioritize.
what matters and what doesn't.
what needs immediate attention and what can wait.
what needs to be done and what needs to be ignored.
what is important and what is essentially immaterial.

though one's personal preferences get in the way in deciding these matters, there are some things which can be considered universal in the sense that they have their exact place. however, the sad truth is that even though one knows the exact importance that something has, one can sometimes still not manage to prioritize that thing.

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the entry above is like a senseless flow of thoughts.

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anyway, just to blog about things....

right now, i really need to FOCUS and do the things that i MUST do.
we are practically running late on our thesis schedule and i believe that it not tolerable.
we must graduate on time and our thesis, right now, is the key element to GRADUATION on APRIL 2011.

on my part, i believe that I am doing things to fulfill my GANTT Chart.. but i have to admit that i get distracted too easily... and it is not right. I MUST do what it takes to finish my tasks on time.


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on the other side of life, I am now arriving at the point where i have to decide what i really want to do after graduation. JOB offers are coming. LOL. that is just to exaggerate. but JOB OPPORTUNITIES are coming and i am letting them slip off.

my primary predicament here is that I need to take the board Exams first in order to be a licensed ECE... and from my graduation date, (I am claiming this Oh Lord), whic is on April 24, 2010, i have 7 months to go before the board exams.... will i work right after graduation or will i focus on my review??

P&G has started getting their applicants and sad to say, I missed the chance to join their exclusive IDS Day just because I chose to attend my ECE 198 class. I am aware that it was not really a good choice.. but i don't know. Right now, I am still unsure about my future.

Grad School is always there of course. I have to admit that sometimes, i want to prove myself that ECE is really for me and that i love and want it so much. actually, sometimes, i do.... or perhaps i really do. the idea of grad school just tires me but i want to....

GMA Scholarship is also in the way. I have this contract with them and sometimes, i get the feeling that i can not really choose a job for myself because they can rip my choice away for me... i do not know. I do not also know if i really want to work in the telecommunications field even though i remember that when i was younger, i have wanted my name to be seen in the closing credits of a particular station.


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CHOICES. DESIRES. NEEDS. CHOICES.

i must choose what i want or perhaps what God wants for me.
but sometimes, i begin to ask God what He really wants for me.

yes, He speaks through signs and through nature and through circumstances. and i have to be keen in observing... maybe i just have to tune in in His frequency. (Bad joke for an ECE, haha)

anyway, right now, the thing that i have to do is to finish my weekly task for my GANTT Chart.
and as my title says, ONE BY ONE. one step at a time.

today, i do this..
tomorrow, i do that.

I just hope that God guides me in every way. I know He is.. :)

a new beginning! :D

so many things happened for the past weeks.
yes i know that i said that i would fix my site but my laptop crashed for some reason and my sembreak became what i have not planned. well i know that i did not really make 'plans' but i guess, i just did random stuff...


i guessi just have to make a random listing
my grandfather died.
the sem was over.

congrats to me, i am still a YuSung Scholar! :D i am really thankful to God because He gives me opportunities to help my parents in any way. well, i did not make it to the US list because i fell short of some points. i really got quite disappointed but i guess i have to move on and just do good this sem.... let go and let God, right. it just feels nice knowing that somehow, i still manage to excel in what i am doing. wala lang. sometimes i think that i am good with what i am doing but i am not really passionate about it...but then again, i know that these kind of thoughts only come out when i am stressed or when things don't go the way i would have wanted them to be so i really try to eliminate them. ELIMINATE!

this semester that is about to come is all about our THESIS! THESIS it!!!
we need to make LARGE amounts of progress and do our BEST since this shall dictate they date of our graduation. and really rely like to graduate on time. i pray to God that HE guides me and my groupmates in everything that we do so that we can do the right things :D i know HE WILL and HE is. :D

right now, i just have to fix my life in a very orderly manner and live it in a way that is proper. there are so many things to arrange and be happy for. i just have to look beyond the imperfections and i know, i am living a really nice life. i thank God for everything and sometimes, when i feel sad, i feel that i am becoming ungrateful.

yes, it can be equated. no it can't be. because i know that God understands me.

being sad is totally not equal to being ungrateful... right?

whenever my hormones kick in and make me feel some things that are not welcomed, i think it;s better to quote Barney Stinson! hahaha.
BE AWESOME instead! :D

later, i am going to give this blog some new look, well, not entirely new. but i guess some things new :D

thank you and i miss blogging here.

love,
engineer clarence. :)

that is just so sweet. :)