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life is for people

inedit ko na para wala na masyadong typo errors :P.. :)

LIFE IS FOR PEOPLE....
who would think it's not? right?
...now i
ask,
who is always treating life as it is ACTUALLY for people?

yeh, the 'always' in the question makes all the difference.
i have to admit that most often i have a wrong disposition or persepctive in living my life.
i am not perfect. point well said.
sometimes there are just so many things that concern me which do not actually need my concern. hahahaha :))

i have read Making Friends by Andrew Matthews.. Thanks chap :D
and it has made me rethink of how i live my life with other people.
well, the title of the book might seem to be all about friendships and the usual friendship myths but it's a complete opposite. the book is all about how you deal with yourself. for me, the book teaches you how to make yourself a friend first before reaching out to others. hahah :))

i am going to share some of my most loved thoughts in the book :P
i don't have the book with me though so there will be no cheating on my evaluation...the sad thing about that is the fact that the quotations there are really well said. anyway,to proceed...


other people's business is their business.hm, i am plain guilty about this thing. sometimes i just can't stop myself from being concerned about the way other people will think about me... i am not sure if it's actually vanity or consciousness brought about by my hormones, /* yeh, blame the hormones again! :)) */ but the fact is that sometimes my usual ways of behaving are affected. hm, or the worse, i think too much and thus i am pressured...
in reality, we can never really change others' point of view if they don't have the will to change it. what they think are of their own accord and we can't be in control.. sometimes, it is just better to let things be the way they naturally are. it's best to be true to one's self and disregard the "what will be their impressions blah blahs" because most of the time, people are too busy and preoccupied thinking about their own personal dilemmas that they won't even notice your worries. yeh, it is a domino effect. it's because of this fact that we tend to worry a lot. well, if we'll look at it, if we try to focus on our own lives, our own life will be easier....and we never really have to explain.

another point. sorry if it seems that my points are overlapping but that's the way it is.... if we are too concerned about 'the others' opinion' we will be pressured to always explain our side to them.
e.g. hey i did not go to the party because i just blah blah blah blah.... when in fact, if we are secure of ourselves, we can plainly say e.g. i did not go to the party because it was my choice. WHY?? because it was my choice.. WHY? DON'T YOU CARE ABOUT THE CELEBRANT? it might appear that i do not care about the celebrant but that was my choice.
point taken. we do not always need to explain our side to others because they will also not see the whole picture of our situation. we do not owe an explanation to our choices if we want to keep it to ourselves....

i am unsure if i am conveying the right message across but the good point is that we are who we are and our choices are what they are.. we choose them and that fact is enough to escape other people's scrutiny.... because if we give in, they will ask us even more and thus invade our privacy.... it then shows our stand and give them a glimpse on how we want to be treated...

yes. we decide how other people will treat us. our actions are the ones responsible for what we give others about the way we handle things and situations. really.. it's amazing :P


hm, okies.. so i think i am exploring the book so much.. hahah, forgive me blogger. anyway....


more of sticking to my title........
really. life is for people.
the purest essence of our life is to live it for the people around us.
people are so important that we must always give importance to the right ones.

yes. right ones.....
one thing that i learned is that if people want to be miserable, give them the chance to be unless they seek your help or they really need you. you will know it... but if people DECIDE to be miserable, you just have no choice but to let them learn what they need to learn in their situation....i also learned there that most often, it is best to keep our mouths closed and say nothing.... really,,,, minsan talaga madaldal ako but i guess i should learn the art of silence especially in the moments that my friends need solitude.... i think i should give advice only if they are asking for it :P

hm so blogger...
andaldal ko nanaman.
the book is really nice and ahm i will do my best to live up to what i have read....


btw: life update:

currently, tinatapos ko pa rin yung crossstitch piece ko..
hm, well, i think that my tasks this summer are still not yet completed.
ang hirap tapusin nung Sakura kasi mejo nabobore talaga ako! hahahah
pero most of them naman ay nagagawa ko...
i am currently loving Pancakes <3
tas nakapagbake ako! grabe nasunog yung cookies... hahaha :))
tas ahm, ayun, nabasa ko na yung neverwhere!
review review review??
anu bang masasabi ko sa neverhwhere /*thanks aaron! :P */ hm, maganda siya gawing pelikula! pero nung binabasa ko masyado ako nabibitin! gustong gusto ko nang tapusin para malaman kung ano na yung mangyayari! haha, napakatagal ko yun binasa. one week kasi nga putol putol :P tas ahm, ang weird nung story.. hindi na nga ako humihinga kasi ang hahaba nung sentences ni gaiman :P aheheh, anung klaseng review to. pero in fairness naman, maganda rin naman siya :P may natutunan ako dun :P parang sabi dun, yung parang quotation...
"you are doing everything you can to get out of a place, not knowing that it is the very place that you want and love...." clap clap :P
aheheheh :P
anu pa ba.. hm, sa tingin ko dapat ko ulitin yung pagbabasa sa Tuesdays With Morrie :P oo kasi nung binasa ko yun dati, one day lang tas ahm, nakaligtaan ko na yung mga lessons dun except sa isa. yung fave lesson ko dun yun, "okie lang umiyak.. sige pagbigyan mo sarili mo na malungkot o maramdaman ang isang emosyon pero bigyan mo ng deadline yung sarili mo.. dapat pagkatapos ng deadline na yun, hindi mo na dadamdamin yung parehas na emosyon... " o di ba? ang ganda nun :P
hm, oo cge babasahin ko ulit yun. tas marami pa ako kailangan gawin ngayong baaksyon;;;
ipasok na yung Survival Kit :p niox. erg work ito.
anu pa ba pwede makwento...
hm, grabe yung Neopet ko naging 2/7 yung health.
si jep ay nag-wheel of excitement tapos napunta sa kanya yung humihinga ng apoy ba yun tapos ayun, muntik ng mamatay si lusciouscaramelcream/*name ng pet ko*/.. tas hindi ko siya maheal gamit yung galing dun sa faerie... yay. :P hehehe
ayun. hindi na ako nangingisda sa gaia online pero pede ko na pala itry ulit kais may mouse na yung laptop ko :P pero ayweee, tsaka na lang :))
hm, lagi akong walang load. as in ayunh. haha okies lang yunh :P

mhm, o tama na nga kwento.. :P

God bless!! ingats!! :P

blogs are meant to inspire

yesh.. they can be.
hm, i have read a blog of someone and later on decided that yes, somehow, i should be doing those things too :D

hm, not so much of an imitation nuh.
pero ahm, wala lang.

o tama nga nga ito lence :P

blog drama

what are blogs?

hm, i don't want to give other definitions.
i'll give mine.

for me, blogs are outlets. they can be your friend. your confidante. your resort when you don't want to talk to someone who will talk back.
it's a piece of you. a reflection of your thoughts that you can read once again and evaluate. it is my pensieve.
my blog is an outline of my thoughts, not all of course since i can not always write ALL of my thoughts. sometimes, i admit that i really don't explain everything. i just put in some tidbits of possible ideas which can make me remind of the feeling i had when i reread my entry again sometime in the future.

having said the things above, i personally believe that a blog should not be a basis in judging one person's character.... yes, a person can be really honest in presenting himself/herself in his/her entries yet the words that are typed in this little space of the net can not always suffice to show the REAL nature of the situation that the writer undergoes. it can never summarize the totality of one's personality and ideals. it can not always explain the whys and hows.

being a reader myself, i strongly believe that my interpretation of a blog will always be defiant against any writer's intentions. if i believe this and that and thinks of this that way, that is my own right... that is my OWN ____ ->meaning, i own it literally.

a blog then should not extend to a writer's defense of his/her thoughts. if his/her readers misinterpret his/her blog, the writer has the choice of explaining himself/herself if he/she wants to. in the first place, a writer does not force people to read his/her work... hm, my thoughts are scattered in this point.

hm, interpretations can be helpful sometimes but not to the point wherin the limits are compromised. LIMITS.. LIMITS that vary. LIMITS that differ. nah. oryt.

i think, i ought to bring back the title.
"the blog that is meant to escape scrutiny"

i don't know if am feeling the right things towards these particular things.
i am just sure of one thing,
the feeling that my thoughts are scrutinized and weighed and then thrown down to my face
does not make me smile at all but they make me think.... make me rethink and make me scrutinize myself.

:) or :( ???

i am not sure.

one of those things...

yehey. simula na nga nung summer vacation ko. hm, actually, dati pa nagsimula. ewan ko ba. parang natripan ko lang ulitulitin sa mukha ko na oo nga simula na.

hm, gumawa ako ng listahan ng mga dapat ko gawin o ng mga gusto ko gawin. nais ko naman kasing maging produktibo ngayong summer eh. hehehehm hindi ko na share yung list ko dito. wala lang.

napansin ko rin na ayaw ko na masyadong nagoonline sa YM.
unlike before na parang aliw na aliw ako sa pakikipagchat sa mga tao, ngayon mas gusto ko na lang na magbrowse o maggaming o hm, gumawa ng ibang bagay.

isa lang naman ang dahilan kung bakit ako nahilig sa YM dati. at ngayon, sigurado ako na wala na yung dahilang yun.........

nung sinulat ko yung title nung blog post na ito, hindi talaga ako sigurado sa kung ano ang magiging laman ng mga posts ko, o kung anuman ang aagos sa isipan ko..
siguro ito yung isa sa mga napakaraming pagkakataon kung kailan hinahayaan ko lang ang sarili ko na sabihin kung ano man ang pwedeng sabihin. ganunpaman, ayaw ko naman maging padalosdalos. ano ka ba. ang gulo ko.

nitong mga nakaraang araw, parang bumalong nanaman sa akin yung pakiramdam na ayaw ko muna magparamdam sa mundo. pero syempre, obvious naman na hindi ko yun ginawa. owel.


hm, magsusulat na lang ulit ako. ng bagong entry. baga sakaling dun, pwede na yung mga biglang pumapasok sa isipan ko.

ang kulit ko. pero ayaw ko sa makulit.
owel. cge.
mamaya na lang. hahaha.
God bless :P


p.s. gagala ata kami ni angge tom :)

revised: don't expect anything more than what you have given

yes. very applicable.

i love english. english per se. i did not actually foresee that last sem, i would find it difficult to deal with english 12.

yay. sad face :(

i like reading. but perhaps. not to the extent wherein i am forced.
sigh.
confessions.
i was not able to finish even a single novel in the course of our subject.
i was the primary consumer of sparknotes.

i used all my skills in threading my sentences for them to form coherent thoughts, as if i have actually read the novel.
perhaps i have treated it as a real GE.
nah. i have always done well in GEs! well, for the past semesters, i suppose--when our majors have not yet required that much.
but no.. last last sem, i think that i have not also prioritized my Geog1 but i still got the grade that made me smile.

anyway.
last grade that flashed on my screen was eng12.
i was praying that it'll be better.that my teacher will see the efforts that i have still exerted despite my tight sched and demanding academic life.
nah. i was totally wrong.

NO CS for me this sem.


anyway, how can i expect to get a high grade when i have not really fulfilled what the course requires?
or am i just kinda emotionally-stricken knowing that the other class got high grades without effort? naka 1.25 raw yung isa kong friend sa eng12 nang walang ginagawa. hm, lucky class.

anyway, my classmate also got a 2.hm, i don't want to compare his efforts with mine. we're both in engg. and he's always telling me that he has not read any book and that he even did not watch the play for our final paper requirement. hm, silence.

i did my best in our final paper. o well.
no more complaints. period.

hahahah. well, wala ng magagawa.
perhaps if i have read all the novels, i'd be happier.
but alas, eng12 is over.
i just thank God that this sem has been great. yeh, still great.
thanks to Mo. Mary for her guidance and love.

and, hm, i'll be more picky towards ther GEs that i will be choosing.
God blesses me.

must have beens

sometimes, there are just moments in life wherein you have planned for something and that something did not just go as planned.
at times, it's you who has the "fault". the you has suddenly turned up against your own will. the you who has been on the verge of being undecided once again but has just decided to fall off the cliff. the you who has somehow been a traitor to your original goals and aims. the you who wants another thing.
how does it feel?
to be so excited about a thing and to give it up the moment you almost had it?
to be confused if the thing you have prepared for yourself is absolutely for you or was just conjured by your sheer innocence of the real perspectives that should have dawned on you before the dreadful moment of making the choice has come?

choices. once again. decisions. again and again.

and yet here we are, trying to always stand up. firm in our beliefs that we must continue to make these choices.... trying to escape the temptation of uttering the words "what if" and "what might have been"

yeh. it hurts to look back and see that the snowball **eee23 term :P** has become even larger and it's just plain hard to go back to the basics.

yah. it's the truth. the truth with no sugarcoatings. the truth that will always prevail, cliche man.
you pay for your choices. you earn with your decisions.

that's why better be sure.

on a lighter note, Pray hard.
He'll guide us.