sudden gush of ideas

yes, this is the last day of the year 2010 and right now, looking at the right side of my blog, i realize how long i've been here... how long i've kept this site and made it as a friend.

2010 has been a very nice year for me and i thank God for all the good things and good people that and who have occurred into my life. 2011 is a great year as well and i am praying and hoping for the best and for God's will.

many things will happen and i am excited to open the gifts that God has in store for me.

since i have placed the title as such, i believe that i should begin the flow of these thoughts that are in my head.

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i will blog more often.

this has always been the case. but of course, i don't always have the time to do it. or perhaps just the mere willingness to type in the things that i am thinking. first is maybe it's because i am sometimes afraid that people (if ever there are actually people still visiting this...) would judge me based on whatever i will write around here. let's admit it. or rather i admit it. i always feel the urge to blog when i feel something negative or to plainly say it, when i am sad... and since i always remember what my eee13 teacher told us before, "Why would you give other people the reason to mock you?" i don't blog. i simply let the feeling pass away because i know, sooner or later, it will fade away.

when i am happy, i am just too 'tamad' to blog that's why my entries are so incomplete. haha. lame excuse.

i've been planning to change the layout of this site but i guess i still don't have much time.

i'll get there.

i specially need to change my picture here.

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you should not do things half-heartedly.
why?
because it's even more difficult to succeed.
and by pushing yourself to do things which you don't really like in the first place, you lose your self value. and that's not good.

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confidence.

i have always wanted myself to be much girly. in the sense that i can wear girly clothes.
i envy girls who can walk around wearing cute dresses because i don't wear those types of clothes. i can wear them but i don't. what's the problem?

me. and my confidence level.

whoever said that even a little confidence goes a long way must be so right.

i have confidence. but i don't have that kind of confidence. yet.

let's see.

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death.

death is sad. and seeing the people who are close to you... actual people in your life lose someone special is just heartbreaking.

may you all rest in peace.

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God.

having the opportunity to serve God in your youth should be a very good advantage.

i am getting older and i am little by little, consuming the days of my youth.

i should serve God. now.

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today (December 31) is one of the busiest days in our home.
it's New Year's Eve and it's also the birthday of my Lola! :D

it has been a tradition especially before when our Lola was still living with us that we cook food and have a noisy and happy house. Parang reunion sa Mother's side. :)

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so there, i just hope for everyone's safety,
nakakangawit yung pwesto ko habang nagbblog.

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i am re-reading The Alchemist right now.

Good Years ahead! :)

Love,
Clarence