Fulfillment

I guess this word seems very simple but is in fact very rich in meaning.

In a world where it is difficult to find your place and know your purpose, I think it is fulfillment that people are looking for. A sense to make you feel your worth and to make you feel that what you're doing is valuable.

Right now, I honestly admit that there are certain points in my life wherein I can not say that I am fulfilled.

But then, during these times, I always strive to tell myself to not focus on whatever's missing but instead focus on what I can do to make up for the lacking portions.

Today, I have realized that when I feel I lack fulfillment in certain aspects of my life, I should try to be fulfilled in other aspects.

Maybe God is telling me to rest in some aspects first because He also wants me to grow in other aspects and thus, He wants me to learn more and do more. Maybe in the long run, this set-up if better than what I originally want and that this is what is best for me.

Sometimes I can't help but question God why things happen the way they do and I just end up feeling miserable and sad. But I guess in the end, it is better to think that God always has plans for me and that His plans are always for my best interest. I just have to trust His own timing and know that His plans are far greater than whatever I can imagine for myself.

I just have to wait. And of course, do my part-that is instead of wallowing in sadness, try to make the best out of every situation and learn whatever I can learn. God is merciful and he gives grace and wisdom to those who ask.

For now, I am praying for strength. I hope God gives me strength to accept the moment I am in right now and the strength to act whenever I have the opportunity to change something.

Please make me stronger and smarter. Amen.