rundown of events

Hello there my dear blogger! :)

Today marks the concert of International Superstar Justin Bieber in the Philippines. Okay, that is a lame start. Haha. I am watching the News right now and almost every channel on tv talks about this event. Well, I have nothing against J.B. I think I even like some of his songs and I think he's really talented. Moving on....

Recently, I have been very vigilant in watching news shows. It's because somehow, in the back of my mind, I always look for that something... for a news on THAT particular place.. yet on the other hand, I also wish that no big news really come out from there, since most often, news only contain negative reports or happenings.

Okay let's get to the point.

For the past months, news about JAPAN have been circulating in the internet and it is not difficult at all to search for the latest events and happenings there. After the tsunami and the nuclear problem, Japan has always been in the limelight of international media. The thing is every time I search for the latest news there, my heart jumps and somehow I feel nervous.

Just a few weeks before the earthquake, I was in Japan. And I got the job offer that I have dreamed of getting for almost the duration of my college life. I saw how beautiful the country is and how disciplined the people there are. I can not say even a single thing that I did not like about the country. Well, I only stayed for about 5 days... The people were nice and friendly. There were so many nice places to see. The country is very clean. Everything is nice. The environment is teeming with culture, science and spice. It's a breath of fresh air to stay in such a wonderful place even for just a few days.

This is why it hurts me to see how the event of March 11 has devastated such a very good country, making me think that everything is still not placed in the hands of men. Moreover, the earthquake that occurred has not only shattered buildings and homes in the Tohoku region. About more than a hundred miles away, a hoping heart's dreams were shaken too.

Yes, people in Japan were grieving and at the same time, I was grieving too for the dreams that I have somehow imagined myself of having once I return to Japan land to fulfill the work that I have gotten. I thank the Lord for having presented to me such a good opportunity which will allow me to help my family and to garner good experiences which can help me grow as an individual. But with the earthquake and the nuclear problem, I am now placed in a situation wherein what I want is possibly in conflict with the reality.

I am now in a state of confusion. Of whether I should still go or not for what I originally have planned. I ask God about what He wants and I know that He will give me an answer. I know that fear should not reign in one's heart but we all know that prevention is better than cure. I have other options here and I believe that they are also good granted that I will do my best in everything I do. But what do I really want? Should I let an opportunity of a lifetime just pass?

It's a long road ahead. And only God knows the future. The steps that we take today will determine what will happen in the future and I know that I must pray hard and do my best wherever God wants me to be. To God be the glory, forever and always.