Unproductive

For this past year I have been feeling that I'm being unproductive in achieving my goals, or even at setting goals that is.

I encounter a lot of issues with myself, from being able to write a grammatically perfect english or japanese sentence, to avoiding the urge to use social networking sites. 

What happened to me? 

Work happened.

And though I know that work should not really be an excuse in learning outside the halls of your office, somehow I feel that it has impeded my growth in other aspects of my life.

Why? Because it is tiring to work.

It drains my energy. It makes me feel exhausted. It takes majority of my time during weekdays.

And while I have the urge to do some great things outside work, my weak self succumbs to every opportunity to just relax, do nothing, think nothing and be nothing, every waking moment that I don't spend inside the office.

This is sooo bad. And though I am trying to stop it, it keeps getting worse...

In my mind, I know what I want to do and what I should do. But my degraded discipline level can't keep up with the demands I have for myself.

I know I have to stop wasting time. I have to start growing again. I need to realize the value of time that I have. I must stop reminsicing the glorious past when I was Ms. Full of Discipline and instead focus on how I can be Ms. Smart again.

I need to forget the greatness of yesterday and instead focus on how I can make my future great. 

From now on.

From now on, I will organize my thoughts more. I will always set goals for the day and fulfill the goals that I have set. I will be a better person.

I will not waste time anymore and use every waking moment for productivity and for the greater glory of God.

Everyday is different but with God, everyday can be great.

3 words. 3 themes that will make me achieve more, from hereonwards. 

Health. Knowledge. Kindness.

3 themes thag I should pursue. 

3 themes that I am gonna aim for.

There's no going back. There's only moving forward. I can not be trapped in the past. I need to regain the glorious days when I can will myself to do anything that I must do. 

Grace comes from God.

But essentially, Life is what I make from what God provides. i am gonna make it great. I am gonna use my resources wisely. I am gonna take care of these blessings. 

This might be a struggle as of the present. But baby steps are better than nothing. 

Build a good foundation for success.

Trust God and offer Him everything.