"One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death."http://www.history.com/minisite.do?content_type=Minisite_Generic&content_type_id=882&display_order=1&mini_id=1084
ah so st.valentine's inspire others to pursue their love for the object of their love. yah, i think so.. hm..
even in my previous blog entries, i have always disdained the romantic aspect of my life. yah i know, i am not that open in terms of this thing. i do have crushes, i get kilig whenever my crush makes me pansin /*duh, what a linggo...*/, i sometimes long for soemone to be with me whenever i am alone...i sometimes daydream of being with a special person instead of my own imaginary friend who has always lurk with me during my "loner-ako-moments". hahahah. and so?
ngayon, araw na naman ng mga puso. araw na naman ng pag-ibig? huh? ang corny mo clarencia.
anyway, sabi ni yuda at ng bestfriend ko, valentine's day is "single awareness day". in the very words of my bestfriend, she said, "valentine's day is the day wherein singles are made to feel miserable,..." hm, hm, hm,... hahaha. and so?
i don't really feel miserable despite the fact that i am single.
i don't really get the feeling that i need to involve myself in a commitment any time soon.
i don't really see myself being addicted to this so called "love" and cry afterwards.
i don't want to be open to the idea that i must have someone special in my life in order to feel complete.
duh? ironically,
i admit that i fancy the idea of having someone whom you can just love amidst everything. /*yuck, lagot ako sa tatay ko, balita ko eh nababasa niya yung mga entries ko dito! at mantakin mo nga naman, paano kaya niya nalaman ang url nito? huh? hm, ang hirap namang magbago ng url kasi eto na yung alam ng iba. shucks talaga.*/
anyway, to continue....
hm, i don't have a heart of steel and honestly, at times, it gets too tempting to break my defenses, remove my walls and let myself be covered with the love that has made this world shout for more.
kanina lang, i had this conversation with my mother.
Clarence: ma, kilala mo ba si /*insert name here...ah, kunwari EDIT ang name niya*/ EDIT? hm, alam mo crush ko yunh. kasi ganito at ganyan. tapos, ganito pa.... hm, blah blah blah blah..."
Mama: "hm, wag muna anak. hindi pa yan panahon. sinasabi ko sa iyo, marami kang panahon sa ganyan. " and so on and so on....
tapos bago lumabas ng sm marilao, nakita namin yung isang teacher ko!
syempre like everyone else, ang bati sa akin ay
Teacher:" aba, gumaganda ka ah. /*wahahaahh pagbigyan na ako,,, :P pero sinabi niya tlga yunh. tas naopen up nanaman ang tanong. the one million dollar question*/ may boyfriend na ba yan?
hahahaha. ASA. ASA na meron. syempre wala di ba!
tas ayunh, sinabihan na rin niya ako ng napakaraming bagay.
REASONS WHY I SHOULD NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND:? huh, ahm, erase....
REASONS WHY i SHOULD STAY SINGLE: according to my teacher and my mother. :)
- unahin ang career at pagaaral.
- wag ka muna sa commitments pero okie lang magentertain, mga kaibigan.
- masasaktan ka lang, mahirap masaktan iha!
- iba na ang panahon ngayon at nakakatakot ang mga lalaki sa panahon ngayon.
- mark my word: my soul mate ka at hindi ka tatandang dalaga.
- may itsura ka naman kaya wag ka magmadali sa ganyan.
- "hindi ko type yung sinasabi mo.at hindi namin siya kilala ng papa mo." -->mama ko. wahahahahah. natawa ako dito, sobra. :))
hm, at dahil araw ng mga puso, at muli akong napaalalahanan ng mga ganitong bagay, anu na kaya?
hm,....
being single or committed is not the issue here. it's about the fact that in this world wherein every emotion and feeling is sensationalized to the extremes, will you have enough guts and temperament to settle for your own idealism and timeline? will you not be blinded by the impression that you need to have these commitments in order to be happy or that you need to hold someone else's hand to make it through in life?
these days, i hold my own hand a lot...just so i can know the feeling of holding a hand. but i guess, this entry will always remind me of how i should begin to trust myself and my future to what God has planned for me. it may be too tempting to plunge in the world of romantic love especially when things are seeming to be too good to be true but self control and the right frame of mind will always serve as the steering wheel towards the right path. i know, i am not perfect in obedience. i might eat my words and end up falling in love or being with someone. but i guess that if ever that time comes, i must make it sure to myself that i made the decision with my whole heart, mind and soul..that i am willing to stand by it and that i was not just pressured.hm, toinks.
ang seryoso ko.
ang sa akin lang naman, darating din ang panahon na yun. hindi ko alam kung kailan pero kapag naman binigay ng Diyos, mararamdaman mo iyun di ba? mahirap masaktan at ayoko talagang maramdaman ang sakit na ganun. ang totoo kasi, marami ka pang dapat gawin na ibang bagay at ang aspetong ito ng buhay ay hindi muna dapat pinoproblema o iniisip.. ayun pala ang point nito. hm, nakakatawa naman ako. actually hindi ko naman siya iniisip talaga. napaisip lang ako dahil nga siguro magvavalentine's day na ulit! haha :))
bata pa naman kasi at may iba pa dapat na priorities. huh? yun ba yun? haha, ah, Bathala na. hindi naman kasi talaga dapat pang binoblog ang mga ganitong issue..!!
basta ang alam ko, ang Valentine's Day ay hindi lamang para sa mga may karelasyon in a romantic sense. ito ay para sa lahat ng nagmamahal at minamahal.... may agape naman di ba?
mahal tayo lahat ng Diyos at ang katotohanang iyon ay sapat na upang isipin na worth icommemorate ang Valentine's Day.
haha, isang malaking whatever! :P
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