when does a boring life begin?

recently i find myself in a fleeting yet stationary state of melancholy. i am not sure of the reason but it seems that the days of being happy have subsided for a while... yes, i am fighting the urge to sulk. i am fighting myself from feeling the paranoia that is haunting me.i am alleviating myself from being a damsel in distress primarily because i don't want any prince to arrive.

it just seems that my days are becoming so usual. or so i thought?
it seems that i am indulging myself so much of the superficiality that baffles this world with immaterial concepts of nothingness.or am i just being plain sarcastic once again?

surreal. this is how i describe things when i think that everything fits into place. yet surreal is also the same word that fits my situation although i know, i am far from feeling the same sensation.

for two instances this week, a question that is so ordinary has made me thought of something extraordinary...

Friend: what is your hobby?
I: reading, i guess so...
F: huh? eh parang hindi ka nga mahilig magbasa eh...
I: huh, talaga? hm, mahilig ako magbasa, hindi lang halata. at kakaiba kasi yung mga binabasa ko.

but honestly, that conversation stirred me up.
tama siya, ako ang taong walang hobby.
siguro kaya naiisip kong boring ang buhay, o boring nga ba? ayokong sumuko sa kaisipang iyon.
it's because i am still fighting, fighting with my own tempting self, so that the question i have posted as title of this blog entry is not meant to have the word "my" instead of "a".

i am not inclined into sports. i am proud to claim that badminton and jackstone are the only games that i truly enjoy. i don't want to sweat, i don't want to wear those sporty attires and tire my heart out in the gym. basically because, i am nopt permitted to "exhaust" my heart. hahaha.
i am not into anime, not that much.... not in an addicted mode.. but hey, i do watch some particular series!!! when i have the time, that is.
i am not into music...perhaps, it's because i am too darn lazy to bring with me any source of music. i do have the choice actually to bring some mp3s or use my phone but i just opt not to. katakot kasi sa mata ng mga masasamang loob? eh?
i am into arts. yes, i am. i like drawing, painting and skecthing. when i was in high school , i used to join poster making contests. my collection of art materials used to be complete--from pastels, to watercolors to colored pencils and colored pens. but that was before. haha, i rarely even hold a pencil in my hand these days for the sake of art! i mean, io draw things before but more of them were usually abstract things, not the anime thingy that is most drawn by most people.
i am not into computer games. well i have not delved into RPGs but i guess,i easily get bored in dealing with a fake environment wherein every movement is simulated and artificial. pepsi, i want the real thing. but i ma planning to actually join an online kingdom and build my castle theer... i'm planning to be the princess of my own land and be who i am, the one who's unafraid to dare and to bold my identity...or is that quite addicting? haha, i do not want to get addicted. yikes, halohalo na naman.
i am into nature. yes, i even planned of becoming an environmental engineer! thing is, i don't grow a garden.... not so much of an outward hobby. more of an inner hobby. ah, i mean, caring for Mother Earth!
i am into cooking. yes, but not that much.
i am into cross stitching and crocheting! but i just don't do those things now..

hm, i think i get my own point here.
i even blurted out a joke.
hobby ko ang magtravel from diliman to marilao and vice versa.
nyay. di nga?haha
i don't want to get addicted perhaps to the pleasure that these things[hobbies] can give me and in the process, result to being negligent of my own real responsibilities. however, i know that i need to maintain a balance among the things that i must juggle in this life. my life is definitely not one dimensional. what i must do therefore is to make the most out of what God has given me because a boring life only starts when you have succumbed to the fact that you are indeed leading a boring life. and as for me, boring equates worthless... i must therefore persevere to continuously jest my senses and let my enthusiasm prevail.

an idle mind is the devil's workshop. ika nga di ba??

and so, i am now grabbing a book, a book that is all about happiness. :)
and i know, that this solitary phase will soon fade into oblivion as i sing psalms and recover the pieces of what i should really be.

lastly, don't miss out the fun. :)
hahahah,EEE days nga pala ngayon. hm, nasan ako? nasa bahay!
ang aga aga ko umuwi. eh kasi naman. nyay. :P


hm,

if i am to accomplish greater things, i must bear a greater heart.